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Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh.

Immortal
~My Immortal �
Evanescence~

//NO!//
He shouted into the boy�s mind. //Yugi
don�t let go!//
/I�m
trying. I- I� Yami�../
Yami
held Yugi�s bleeding figure delicately, sirens wailing in the distance. His mind searched frantically for something
he could do, anything.
He felt
Yugi start to slip away from him. //No
Yugi, no!//
With one desperate attempt to save his dying love, Yami took over the
boy�s body, screaming as the pain hit him.
He couldn�t die; he was already dead.
Yugi would survive. He had to
survive. Yugi was his life, his entire
existence.
But he
was too late.
The
presence of Yugi�s mind was slowly fading.
Their intertwined souls slowly unraveling. Yami screamed out in
anguish, losing the feeling of their mental link, before he blacked out, mind
forced into retreating by the physical pain.

~ I�m so tired of
being here ~
~ Suppressed by all
my childish fears ~

Yami
collapsed back onto the bed after a half-hearted attempt to sit up. This would be a day when he had no motivation
to get out of bed, or shower, or eat, or move.
None of it really mattered to him.
Nothing mattered.
He stared at a blank wall of Yugi�s room. He hated this room. He would have left, if only to escape the
images, but he couldn�t. Part of him was
afraid. Afraid that if he left the room
in which his hikari grew up, he�d lose the rest of him.
In the back of his head, he knew it
was irrational, but logic was unessential anymore. He�d lost his reason for existence, and now,
logical or not, he desperately needed all he could get. It was a vain attempt to hold on to his
slipping sanity.

~ And if you have to
leave ~
~ I wish that you
would just leave ~

�I should
have known. It�s all
my fault. I should have never taken over his body. If he had died, I would have gone with
him. There�s nothing wrong with
death. It�s all my
fault. I was too focused on saving
him. Instead, I saved his body. But his mind�� He took a moment to close his eyes and find
the tiny line that connected him to Yugi�s mind.
/-pushing- -reaching- -desperate-
-determined- -alone-/
�His mind can�t die because it�s
connected to mine. I�ve forced him to
stay alive. And he�s trying to get back
to me. I�ve failed him. I failed to protect him. I lost him.
It�s my fault he still has to be here.
Because I selfishly didn�t want to lose him. It�s all my fault.�

~ Because your
presence still lingers here ~
~ And it won�t leave
me alone ~

�He�s
trying to get back to me, Joey,� Yami stated, looking down on the empty
casket. There was no body to bury,
because Yugi�s body was essentially alive, merely inhabited by Yami�s
soul. �He can�t fully die because his
mind is connected to mine through the puzzle.
He�s caught in some sort of limbo, between life and death. I can still feel him, faintly. Our link is still there if I look hard
enough. He still exists.�
�Yami,�
Joey said softly, placing a comforting hand on Yami�s shoulder. �It�ll pass, it�s just denial.�

~ These wounds won�t
seem to heal ~
~ This pain is just
too real ~
~ There�s just to
much that time cannot erase ~

Yami lay
quietly. Movement would break his
concentration. The bond was so faint he needed
work to be able to feel it. This was how
he spent most of his days, working to get as close to his love as he could. The
link was too weak to speak to each other anymore. All he could do was feel what Yugi was
feeling.
/-reaching-
-trying- -pushing- -pain- -desperation-/
Yami tried
to focus on his love for his hikari. He
had long since realized Yugi was able to sense his emotions and mental
undertones too. �I love you. Feel that I love you Yugi. Keep trying, come back to me. Please Aibou, come back. Please.
I love you. Come back. I can still feel you, I still love you, know
that I do.� He knew Yugi couldn�t hear
the thoughts, but he would feel some sort of reflection of them.

~ When you cried I�d
wipe away your tears ~
~ When you�d scream
I�d fight away all of your fears ~
~ And I held your
hand through all these years ~
~ But you still have
all of me ~

In reaction
to Yami, Yugi�s message changed slightly.
/-love- -undying love- -alone- -pain- -reaching- -love- -trying-/
It was all
he could to. Yami�s sole purpose in life
was to protect his light, make it better, but this time, he could do nothing. He could only sit and wait, while his love
reached out for him, hoping against hope that he somehow made it back, somehow
strengthened the bond. What they used to
take for granted would mean salvation.
Just to be able to hear his mental voice, make the bond just a little
closer, would have helped.

~ You used to
captivate me ~
~ By your resonating
light ~

Memories were
still crystal clear, painfully so. Perhaps
it was the remnant of the bond that kept them fresh, or maybe it was just that
Yami�s life had not consisted of anything since Yugi had left. The memories would play over and over in
Yami�s head, making him feel like if he just reached out far enough,
he would be able to touch his hikari once more.
Or maybe it was the bond that made him feel that way.
He could still see Yugi, sitting cross-legged
on the bed, bright eyes shining as he told a story about something that had
happened earlier that day. His soft
features, golden voice.
He could
still see him, beads of sweat quickly cooling and drying as he curled up on top
of Yami, exhausted. Hear his slowing
breaths, feel the comforting weight upon him.
He could still
hear Yugi whisper �I love you� softly before sleep claimed him. Remembered the overwhelming
amount of love that would filter across their link, echoing the statement.
But as soon
as he opened his eyes the images would fade, and the sounds would prove to just
be the wind. And Yami would be left
alone physically, and haunted mentally.

~ But now I�m bound
by the life you left behind ~
~ Your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams ~
~ Your voice it
chased away all the sanity in me ~

Yami
banged hard on Joey�s front door, not stopping until the sleepy eyed blonde
opened it with a yawn. �Yami, it�s three
in the morning. What is-� he cut his own
words off with a jerk when Yami held up his arm. �Oh my God.�
He had
violently slashed open his wrist, leaving pieces of skin hanging that were
concealed in the vast amount of blood that was rushing out of the open
wound. It was everywhere.
�I can�t
die,� Yami whispered.
�What the
fuck? Yami, you need to get to the
hospital!�
Yami
shook his head calmly. Joey didn�t
understand. His eyes were insanely
bright in the light of the dim lamp. �I
can�t die, Joey. I�ve already died. I can�t die again. Ever. I can�t ever die. I will live forever. I can�t die.
I CAN�T DIE!� He fell against the blonde, reduced to shouted words
between sobs. �I�m going to live for all
eternity, WITHOUT HIM!� He choked on a mix of tears and blood, losing all
words.
Joey was
trying to comprehend, thoughts hazy through his sleep clouded mind. �Yami, you have to move on. He would have wanted you to move on.�
�How can
I move on when he�s still here! He�s still with me. I can�t die, and neither can he! We can never be together, and we can never part. I can�t move on, it would torture him!� He
sobbed hopelessly against Joey, who held him quietly. He really didn�t understand what Yami was
trying to tell him. But he was starting
to understand, as the blood between them soaked into their clothes, what Yami
meant when he said he couldn�t die. And
the idea made him sick.
�All I
have is memories, forever,� Yami whispered harshly.

~ These wounds won�t
seem to heal ~
~ This pain is just
to real ~
~ There�s just to
much that time cannot erase ~

~ When you cried I�d
wipe away your tears ~
~ When you�d scream
I�d fight away all of your fears ~
~ And I�ve held your
hand through all these years ~
~ And you still have
all of me ~

Yami jerked
violently up into a sitting position.
His muscles complained, that having been the most they�d moved in a few
weeks, but he didn�t notice. He�d lost
most of his connection to himself in a physical sense. He was trying to let this body he was cursed
with fade away, but nothing worked.
Something inside him broke.
Perhaps it
was faith. Perhaps it was hope. But Yugi was never going to make it back, no
matter how hard he was trying. It wasn�t
going to work. His hikari was never
going to reach him. He gave up.
/-anguish-
-overwhelming despair- -utter heartbreak-/
Yugi,
wherever he was, understood too. He
stopped reaching, stop trying to get back to Yami.
For the
first time since he had discovered what was left of the link, Yami closed
himself off from it. He blocked himself
from Yugi.
He climbed
out of bed, and dialed a familiar phone number.

~ I�ve tried so hard
to tell myself that you�re gone ~
~ And though you�re
still with me ~
~ I�ve been alone all
along ~

Yami stood
beside the uncovered grave, Joey faithfully by him. �Are you sure about this?� the blonde asked
tentatively.
A glance
over his shoulder was all the answer his best friend needed. He had to do this. What else could he do?
Abruptly, Joey wrapped Yami in a
hug from behind. �Hell, Yami, I�m going
to miss you. I�m trying to understand, I
am. I know that you�re in your own hell
but, I don�t think I�ll ever be able to comprehend...� he faded away, his voice
cracking. For the first time since the
day Yugi had died, Joey cried.
Yami turned
around and hugged him back, crying onto his shoulder for the last time. They held each other tightly. No more words passed between them. Words made it too difficult. For Joey, words made it too real.
Yami was
the first to pull away. He couldn�t do
this anymore. He had to end it all, and
this was the only way he could.
Yami
crawled down into the hole, opening the coffin that was beginning to rot from
its years already underground. How long
had it been since Yugi had died? He
didn�t know, days, week, and months all blurred together in his mind. He laid himself down in the coffin, and let
the lid slam shut. He heard the dirt
start to hit the lid, and closed his eyes.
With his
mind, he let go of his cursed body. He
devoted everything to the faint link he hadn�t read since the night he stopped
dreaming, unblocking himself from Yugi.
/-Surprise-
-anger- -forgiveness- -relief- -agony- -suffering- -love-/
Yami had
expected as much. But he would never
block him again. Now, there was nothing
else. There was only Yugi. Here, but not quite. And there he would remain forever, reaching
out as hard as he could to his love, never to get closer.

~ When you cried I�d
wipe away your tears ~
~ When you�d scream
I�d fight away all of your fears ~
~ And I�ve held your
hand through all these years ~
~ And you still have
all of me ~
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