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Cursed Gold	By : RyokoEnigmasKitten Category: Yu-Gi-Oh > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 1219 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I do not own YuGiOh!, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

Chapter List
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All disclaimers and warnings
are posted in chapter one.

Dedications:
My wonderful beta readers Eternal SailorM and Desolate03, the latter of whom
came into the process not long ago and has been both muse and sounding board.
Also the kitties Aya, Biscuit and Mika-chan for keeping me company while I
type.

Archive:
DarkMagick.net if ESM wants it; The Asylum; MediaMiner.org; Katsuko's Obsession.
All others please ask.

Notes: Wow.
The final piece of this puzzle is almost in place. Unfortunately, it may cause
more questions than answers.

Originally,
this epilogue was going to tie in heavily with that of Eternal SailorM's Color
of Life. As I tried and tried to write what I had intended, the words
refused to come. I realized with a start that my mind set was no longer allowing
me to write Kaiba and Jounouchi as a couple. I stepped away for a while to
ponder what course of action to take. Should I just skip the epilogue and
not continue the series? Should I take weeks or possibly months to churn out
something that I couldn't really be proud of? Should I take the story in another
direction entirely?

And then
ESM, my lovely yami, gave me an idea.

The result
is the final note of CG, which you are about to read. Nothing will be the
same again, at least not for Kaiba Seto and Jounouchi Katsuya.

---

They say that love conquers
all.

They don't know what
they're talking about.

For those who are still
human, yeah, maybe love is the end all and be all, able to cure
all the ills of the world. For those of us in the undead or fuzzy set, love
is a whole other ball game.

Three weeks. Three weeks
of the warm happy feeling in my stomach, of the racing of my heart at faint
smiles and the presence almost as familiar as my own. Two weeks of having
someone comfort me as I worried over Dorobou's condition, afraid that the
doctors were going to keep him in that hospital just as they had once tried
to keep me there, some three years ago. One week of snarling off stray members
of his pard that kept wandering into my turf.

And just as suddenly
as it had begun, I realized that I wasn't in love.

My instincts were starting
to drive me insane. One part of me was saying "Seto is my mate, he
can protect me from anything" while at the same time another was screaming
"Seto is Master, he must be protected from his enemies." It was
getting to the point where I wasn't sleeping more than three hours at a
time, frightened that someone would slip in while I was asleep and my vampire
was helpless.

Last week, on the last
night of 'us', Seto approached me and asked what was wrong. And I... I couldn't
lie to him. I told him what was bothering me, about my warring instincts
and that... that I love him, always will love him, but that I am not in
love with him and don't think I ever can be. He was quiet for a long time,
so long that I thought it might be a wise idea to start moving my stuff
into one of the groundskeepers' houses towards the back of the property.
Then he spoke, his words echoing mine in so many ways.

We loved, we love,
but we are not in love.

After what felt like
hours trying to figure out why we wanted to be together but needed to be
apart I finally crumbled and called Kaasan. She's a damned smart woman,
a fountain of knowledge in so many aspects. She didn't even need to check
her books to tell us what was going on: Seto is a Master vampire, and my
animal side responded heavily to his subconscious call. Thinking about it,
my crush became something more only after he was turned.

Doesn't make it hurt
any less.

Right now, Seto is in
his office, feeding and making arrangements for when Dorobou finally comes
home. I think one of his brothers arrived sometime last night after I shut
myself away in one of the upper bedrooms but I haven't ventured out yet
this evening. I hope it's the elder one of the pair, I like him because
he smells of warmth and sunlight even though he can't have seen the sun
in at least a good three centuries. And he makes Seto happy. I think Seto
might even love him, not the way he loves me or Mokuba, but that elusive
in love feeling that we don't really have for one another.

As for me... the leopard
wants to roam, to mark my territory more and keep all others away. It wants
to go into the city and hunt up trouble. It wants to steal Dorobou away
from the hospital and secure him in a safe den where no one will harm him.
The human, though, just wants to be away for a while. He wants to mourn
something that was never real to begin with but that he wishes hadn't ended.
He wants to be held and told he is loved, that someone is in love with him.
He wants to be in love with someone, anyone, who knows what he is and is
not frightened away. He wants Seto back.

But I cannot have him.

I will do nothing to
harm our friendship or the love that we have toward one another. For now,
it is all that I can have.

~

Outside of the Kaiba
mansion, across from the gates, a young man stands frowning. The beauty
he admires resides within, out of reach yet somehow not. His true employer
has been in the hospital for a while now, and the beauty had until last
week come and gone with Kaiba every time the new Master of Domino went out.
Now, though, Kaiba still comes and goes but the beauty remains within the
mansion.

It isn't right, isn't
fair. How can he admire the one he adores/lusts for if the golden suncat remains
shut away? It will not do. He will talk to the Boss and find out what has
occurred. If the suncat is still the vampire's then he will stay away but
keep his fantasies. If the suncat is no one's again then he will try once
more to seduce him. After all, his calmer personality does indeed have something
akin to affection for the suncat. Perhaps in time he will feel something more
than wanting.

Decision made, the dark-skinned
man nods shortly and begins to walk towards the hospital, light hair accented
by the streetlights.

~ * ~ An Ending... and
a Beginning ~ * ~
---

And thus ends Cursed
Gold, on a bit of a low note. When I originally started this the intention
was for Jounouchi and Kaiba to be together, good times or bad.
But... well, my interest in puppyshipping has waned and for whatever reason
this just seemed to be a natural conclusion.

Yes, Kaiba loves Jounouchi,
and Jounouchi does love him as well. Unfortunately they cannot be together
if each is to remain the person that the other has come to love. They are
friends, but more than that, through the events in the Endless Loop
saga thus far they have become family. To the leopard, Kaiba is Master and
Pard, someone to be cared for and protected. To the vampire, Jounouchi is
Kin and Brother, someone whom he feels responsible for. More than anything,
each wants the other to be happy... even if that means they cannot be together.

Don't worry, though.
Life will improve somewhat for both the boys. Jounouchi's story will continue
in Avarice; Kaiba's may well continue in a spin-off of Eternal SailorM's
Blood and Sacrifice by Desolate03.
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