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A.N. Wow, the final chapter… this feels really weird. I
can still remember sitting in a top bunk while on vacation with my family,
working on a Chrno Crusade fic, and having this idea. I was typing the Prologue
on a whim with no other idea then “I wanna send Yugi back into the past by
himself.” ^-^ And now, he’s gone, returned, and this is the last chapter to
this story that has taken me two years to write. Thank you to all who supported
me through this endeavor and for all the reviews I received, and I hope this
ends the way you wanted. Look out for the Epilogue as well, I’m quite proud of
it. ^-^
Chapter Seventeen
“AHHH! I’m going to be so late!”
Yugi cried, practically flying from his bed and into the middle of his room as
soon as the whispered words of his other had finally broken through the haze of
his dream to remind him of the time. He tripped on some dirty clothes and a few
toys that were buried beneath it—nearly slamming into his dresser—as he skidded
toward his door, already pealing the pajamas from his body.
“Why didn’t you wake me up, Yami?!”
Yugi cried, already knowing that the spirit of the puzzle had, in fact, done
just that nearly a half hour before, and he’d simply chosen to ignore it.
It was a little irksome that Yami
didn’t seem to want to touch him, and there for hadn’t proceeded to body slam
him that morning. How long is this going to last? Yugi wondered to
himself, pretending he didn’t notice the eggshells Yami seemed to walk on
around him. It was one thing to worry about someone and be extra cautious, it
was an entirely different thing to treat them like glass.
Probably until
you learn to wake up when you are told, Aibou. Yami answered him, and Yugi still took a
moment to close his eyes and enjoy the sensation of his dark back in his mind.
He’d taken it for granted before, be was never letting that happen again.
“I didn’t mean that, Yami…” Yugi
grumbled, quickly falling back into the routine he’d lost for almost six
months.
He grabbed the blue uniform trousers
from the dirty hamper, and with a quick sniff, decided that they’d be fine for
another day, before kicking off his bottoms and grabbing the blazer from the
foot of his bed, and the white shirt from under his dresser.
“Gah, where are my boxers?!” Yugi
cried, turning a circle in the center of his chaotic room, holding articles of
clothes, standing in the underwear he’d worn to bed the night before. He could
wear the same uniform for a week and not care in the least, but after his
adventures in Egypt, Yugi was damned determine to change his underwear twice a
day after having to wear the same ones for nearly six months straight. That
was just disgusting… god, I don’t care if it was only an astral projection of
me…
Aibou.
The call brought Yugi back around to
face the hazy image of his dark, dressed in his usual dark leather and tank
top, his skin paler than Yugi remembered Atemu’s to be, and his eyes seemed
somehow deeper. Even though the spirit was just sitting casually on his bed, he
looked good, and not just in the way Yugi was growing accustomed to noticing.
Sure
his Yami looked hot, there was no denying that fact, but the fact that this was
his Yami, his Yami! Not a portion of him from before he solved the
puzzle, but the entire being he’d come to rely and trust in over the last two
years of his life. It was just nice to see and feel him that sometimes Yugi
couldn’t help but stare. Yugi felt a relieved smile creep up his face, until,
the spirit reached under the bed and dragged out the one clean pare of boxers
he still had.
The dark green, Kuribo printed,
boxers swayed back at him mockingly, and Yugi scowled at the amused smirk on
Yami’s face.
You looking for
these, Aibou?
Yugi stalked forward and snatched
them back with a nod as he dashed back into the bathroom—not only because he
was running late—pulling the handle out and drowning out the sound of Yami’s
amusement with the roar of the shower.
“How does he do that?” Yugi mused to
himself, as he removed his shorts and jumped into the chill spray of the water.
He shivered, gasping at the temperature change, his arms folding around his
waist to conserve body heat. “He always knows where it is…” A kinky and no all
that un-welcomed thought came to his mind, and Yugi straightened in the spray.
“Is he hiding my underwear?”
Aibou, what
would hiding your boxers gain for me?
Yugi let out a muffle yelp at the
sudden input, and his hands reflexively covered his front. He blushed when he
realized what he’d done, and choked on his reply, feeling rather silly. He’d
already made love to the spirit, okay, so it was technically his past self, but
still, what did he have to be so shy about?
The
slight mental wall, Yami had erected between them to give Yugi his space gave
the petite duelist the answer to his question, and Yugi rolled his eyes, making
sure not to think too hard on that question, least it fly beyond that barrier. That’s
right… he’s so fricken’ afraid of me, its making me edgy…
A
little hurt by his dark’s actions since his return, and painful possibility
that Yami remembered but no longer wanted him, made Yugi snappish. “You’re
the criminal mastermind, not me.”
Criminal? Aibou,
you know I’m not the thief. The tomb robber is.
Yugi sighed, and lathered up his
body scrubbing himself clean and enjoying the way the soap and bubbles felt on
his skin. The fact that Yami had used the term “the thief,” and not “a thief”
did not escape him, but Yugi chose not to dwell on suck thoughts, instead
focusing on the feeling of the water running through his hair and down his
back, cleaning him of all the grime he’d picked up the day before. Even a month
after being home he still couldn’t get over the joy of feeling completely
clean, and wearing normal clothes. “Right, sorry, my mistake… you’re just the
mastermind behind my hidden underwear.”
Not true, I’m just aware of your habit of kicking the
laundry Grandpa brings up, under your bed to avoid actually putting them away.
You just forget you do it.
Yugi blinked, unable to argue that fact, and squeezed a
good amount of shampoo into his palm, before attacking his hair. The scrap of
his fingernails, and the smell of his no tear, baby shampoo was comforting, and
Yugi let his eyes drift shut, reveling in the feel regardless of how late it
was getting.
Some things just shouldn’t be rushed.
Aibou, you have five minutes to leave before you’ll be
too late and they’ll lock the school gates.
“No!!!” Yugi whined, shoving his head under the spray,
quickly rinsing it, before shaking it dry and bounding from the shower.
Toweling dry in a new record breaking time, Yugi jumped into his clothes and
bolted out of the house, a piece of toast hanging from his mouth.
“Yugi!” Sugoroku’s call pulled him short as the elderly
man came out to hand him his lunch. One weathered hand rested on Yugi’s
shoulders protectively a moment longer than necessary. Neither spoke of it, and
Yami seemed to grow silent with the action, but everyone knew the reason behind
it. Hell, everyone was doing it, even Kaiba, as scary as that had been.
Yugi had expected the nervous touches his friends and
family gave him whenever possible, just to make sure that he was really there,
but Kaiba’s random pats to his shoulder were a little starling and scary.
Though Yugi guiltily admitted to enjoying the protective growl Yami always gave
at the contact, and he was certain that was why he had yet to tell Kaiba to
knock it off.
“Don’t want to forget this.” Sugoroku said, his eyes
bright and cheerful. Yugi smiled, still glad that his grandfather recognized
him—Saimun had broken his heart when he’d first met the priest, but by that
time he’d almost expected those he thought he recognized to not know him, all
the same it was a nice change—and was worrying over his eating habits again.
“Thanks Jii-chan.” Yugi took the lunch gratefully;
staying still longer than necessary for the pat to his head his grandfather had
suddenly become so fond of.
The feel of weathered hands messing up his still damp
hair was somehow comforting and Yugi smiled, relaxing into the tender moment
before Sugoroku pulled back with a chuckle. “You’d better hurry, you know how
your mother gets when you’re late, and since she’s home now, you better be
quick.”
Yugi jumped again, muttering when he realized that he was
most likely going to be locked out for morning classes, and turned quickly toward
his school.
“Thanks Jii-chan!” Yugi called over his shoulder, too
concerned with his pace to look back, but he could hear Sugoroku’s laugh all
the way down the street, though he was certain that it was nothing more than
the memory of that sound replaying in his mind to ease his still chaotic
emotions.
I am sorry, Aibou.
Yami’s sudden intrusion into his thoughts made Yugi
shiver, and he swallowed back the response knowing from experience how well
strangers took kids randomly talking to themselves. About what, Yami?
Not waking me up? It’s not your fault, I’m the one who didn’t—
No, Aibou. I don’t mean…I was talking about… Yami’s thought trailed off, as the bitter taste of
guilt and sorrow filled the link before it was abruptly cut off with a quick, I
will rest in the soul rooms for the day, Aibou. If you need me, call.
Yugi bit back the burning need to question him, and
nodded trying not to let Yami feel the hurt, and betrayal he felt at being left
in the dark. It wasn’t entirely Yami’s fault. When he was ready, he’d talk,
Yugi just had to be patient, and believe that his dark would tell him.
The silence of their link unnerved him more than he knew
it should. He knew that Yami was still their, and even if he wasn’t Yugi would
be fine on his own, if nothing else his trip to the past had taught him the
strength of his own independence. Still, after finally retrieving that part of
himself, he was loath to loose it again.
But Yami was right, it was easier to think when his head
was clear, and with the unease between his friends and Yami, it wasn’t too hard
to guess why Yami chose to sleep while Yugi was at school. What happened
while I was gone? And why won’t anyone tell me? Everyone’s acting so weird… and
how did they keep my six-month vanishing act from mom? I know she’s barely ever
home but… Yugi was forced to forget his
questions as the big iron gates came into view.
They were still open.
With a renewed strength, Yugi bolted for the entrance,
his legs moving faster than he’d ever thought possible—and he covered a
distance his gym teacher would be astounded at, then confused as to why Yugi
did so poorly in his class—as his heart felt like it could burst from his chest
at any moment.
From the corner of his eye he caught a blur of gold and
almost stopped as it passed him, but the sound of the tardy bell ringing forced
him to keep pace, and with a dive-roll through the slowly closing gates, Yugi
lay triumphantly in a cloud of dust just inside of school grounds.
He was late, but he would
still make the morning classes.
“That was close…”
“You’re telling me.” The familiar voice made Yugi grin as
he looked up into expectant tawny eyes.
“Late start for you too Jou?”
“You know it!” Jonouchi beamed, as if proud of that fact,
and Yugi shook his head standing. He was just glad that Anzu wasn’t around to
hear that. For all the friendship speeches she gave, she became the biggest
anti-friend where school was concerned.
“C’mon, we don’t want to be too late. Anzu will skin me
alive if I’m late for second hour.” Jonouchi said, pulling Yugi along by the
arm.
The casual touch would have been unnoticed if one didn’t
know Jonouchi was well as he did, but being that he did know the blond better
than most, Yugi took note of the steadying grip the other held on him, and
mentally slapped himself for taking so long to return. Not to mention
having fun and… getting… well…
Yugi blushed, not sure how he wanted to think of his
first time. Was it called getting his cherry popped? Did he even have a cherry
to pop? What the hell did that saying mean anyway?
“Yug’ you okay, you’re acting rather spacey?” Jonouchi
helpfully announced, his free hand touching his forehead in concern, and Yugi
ducked away with a giggle that sounded almost pained, hoping that his blush
would be unnoticed.
“Yeah, just… thinking.” Yugi admitted to his feet, not
all that sure about how to approach that topic. Though, it would be nice
to have someone else’s opinion on how to deal with Yami… but, what if… what if
they hate me for being… well, not so virgin and… gay? Yugi smiled to himself at the ease in which he thought that term. Half
a year ago he could hardly think of the word let alone it’s meaning, and now he
used it to describe himself. How things had changed…
“Oh. ‘Bout Yams?” Jonouchi asked, surprisingly quite
perceptive, and Yugi jerked, looking up at his friend in a mixture of horror
and hope. He felt Yami stir in his soul room and—after basking in the feel of
his other so near—sent him a soothing reassurance that all was well, and when
the spirit of the puzzle was again resting peacefully, and no longer aware of
the outside world, Yugi returned his gaze to Jonouchi.
“Yeah… um… you know, there’s uh, something I need to
tell… yo—well everyone.” Yugi began, his cheeks flaming from his stuttering and
he averted his eyes not wanting to see his best friend’s reaction. If his
friend’s did disown him, he’d die, he knew it, and he’d never have the courage
to “come out” to his grandfather—not to mention his mother, and he doubted he’d
ever tell her. Explaining Yami to her would be too difficult to begin with—and
then for all he knew Yami could decide he didn’t need him anymore. What
if he never forgave me for leaving him…? Yugi
thought with a trickle of icy fear and sickening doubt.
“Yeah, okay, but that’s going to have to wait till lunch,
cause, as much as I care for you, I ain’t hearing Anzu’s tardy lecture again if
I can avoid it.” Jonouchi’s truthful outburst helped Yugi steady himself. I
don’t know anything for certain yet, just stay calm and take things one-step at
a time. Whatever happens, will happen… regardless of the time I spend worrying
over it.
“Right.” Yugi agreed and allowed himself to be dragged
into the building and ultimately into his classes—which he found out that Yami
was horrible at the classes and had nearly destroyed his year for him, but it
was the thought that counted right? At least he showed up for him.
With a deep breath Yugi set his mind, determined to
shatter the illusion of normalcy he’d fallen into since his return. He wasn’t
sure of the outcome, but if he’d learned nothing else from Anuksu, it was to
never waste time on worrying over things he couldn’t control. I just
hope it works out…
^^^^^
It was quiet in the soul room, though the walls seemed to
shift colors and intensity every four seconds, evidence of the owner’s
distress. Yami turned his back to the far wall and closed his eyes tightly, his
soul currently wrapped in the security of Yugi’s soul room. He was giving the
young man his space, and watching the walls jump from the cool pale blue of
sadness, to the ruby hue of embarrassment, and back to orange annoyance only to
have it plummet to pale green terror was making Yami almost desperate to know
why these colors were appearing.
If he wasn’t careful he’d open up the link and ease drop
onto Yugi’s mind, and as far as Yami was concerned, he had no right to do that.
I’ve put him through enough hardships… this is his life
that I am attempting to intrude on… and I’ve only been stealing his time from
him. Yami thought to himself, feeling rather
pathetic as he continued to wallow in his self-depreciating thoughts that had
plagued him since the joy of Yugi’s return had faded.
He just came back, like nothing had happened… just like
before, when he was returned from Doom. Yami
thought, remembering the two times he’d been the most frightened and excited at
the same time. It had been those conflicting emotions that had stopped him from
engulfing his soul partner in a hug. It was only later that he realized that
the fear had been of the rejection he might face.
This time though, he’d restrained himself for an entirely
different reason. There is only one way of knowing… and I am too
frightened to find out.
The spirit of the millennium puzzle pulled the
metaphorical sheets closer, and buried his head in Yugi’s colorful pillow. For
all that he thought, the room hadn’t changed by much. The colors seemed
brighter than before, and the closed window on the wall was propped open
allowing a warm breeze in. The window symbolized his soul, and the open glass
showed that he had come to terms with himself and was “free” from the bind he
himself had created. The toys where a little more organized, and there was now
a little treasure chest at the foot of his bed, and try as he might, Yami found
that he could not open the box.
Yugi now had deeper secrets he was unwilling to share,
even with his yami. The thought hurt, and backed up his fears, yet the
otherwise contentment of the soul room suggested otherwise. It all served to
confuse him.
I know my memories are true. I beat Yugi, well, Jonoh
did… then I gained his trust, only to break it. Yami
scowled, inwardly hating himself for the memories he couldn’t even trust
himself. What if I’m wrong, and I didn’t stop in the bath? What if I
just wanted Yugi to accept me so desperately that I changed my own memories to
believe that he loved me too? Sugoroku was just telling Yugi about the theory
that some people can create their own memories, if they wish for it hard
enough… what if… what if that’s what I did? Yami
squirmed with the idea, confused by the reality of his memories and the
possibility of their falseness.
If that treasure box hadn’t been there, Yami may have
been able to believe that he had not been mistaken. After all, if he’d raped
Yugi, his soul room would have signs of it, and he would not have asked for
that hug on his return. … but if it was consensual, why hasn’t… why
hasn’t he said anything?
The inconsistencies were tearing him apart inside. He
wasn’t usually one to wait, or hesitate, but this was no game or challenge he
could easily face. This was Yugi, his aibou, and the feelings he may or may not
have for him, and approaching that trial was terrifying to the spirit. He’d
felt the loss of his soul mate three times already. Once to death, once to his
arrogance, and then to his past, Yami doubted he could handle losing him by
rejection.
This is fine for now… fine… just fine… Yami thought to himself, well aware that it was a
lie, and snuggled closer to the sheets that held the soft smell of the sea and
rain. Yugi’s smell, and attempted to block out all else.
It was always easier said
than, done.
The walls pulsed once more with relief before settling
into the boredom that usually accompanied the school day, and for a moment Yami
was glad that Yugi was distracted, as it allowed him to roll onto his back.
Staring up at the ceiling—decorated with posters and old
glow-in-the-dark stars—Yami tried to regulate his chaotic thoughts. These new
memories, they didn’t change much, not really. It wasn’t like he missed Yugi
anymore than he had before, and his memories of the past two years didn’t
become odd with a sort of detached love that one would expect. It wasn’t like
his lost half had suddenly returned and was now privy to all that had happened
up to this point.
No, the only things the memories did was clear up the
feelings he could not explain before, like his protectiveness of Yugi after the
puzzle’s completion. He knew that part of it was out of gratitude, but the
other part, the one that made him enraged when someone dared to hurt the small
boy he resided in was until then unexplainable.
The teacher, Miss Chrono, hadn’t really done anything but
emotionally hurt Yugi through tormenting Honda, and he’d reacted. All this time
he’d never been able to explain it, now it oddly made sense.
Chrono-san had reminded
him of Fastosus.
Nothing’s really changed… yet, it has. Yami thought, lifting one hand to inspect it.
He could still recall a time when Yugi’s hand was dwarfed
upon his own. When Yugi’s forehead just barely touched his waist. When Yugi’s
rounded cheeks, and upturned nose angled up to see him with curiousness, and
slight fear.
Yugi was just a boy then… a child. One who needed
guidance and strength. You needed so much back then, and when I went too far…
you suffered so much. Yami’s eyes narrowed, I
still see your tears aibou. From that time with Kaiba on Pegasus’s island… and
it hurts but, I also remember the times you held the puzzle with such joy and
love. You were willing to die to save me. You grew up so fast. Starting with
Death ‘T’ and again with Pegasus.
Yami’s smile was ironic as the thoughts and feelings from
the past two years flooded through his mind easing his thoughts from his bitter
fears. You… no longer really needed me… but you didn’t want to let me go
and I hoped…
“But you loved Anzu… I knew you did. That date told me
everything… the hours you spent dressing, and that bothered me because she was
Anuksu… of course I didn’t remember that at the time.” Yami spoke aloud to fill
in the echoing of Yugi’s heartbeat.
Yami’s thoughts kept chasing in circles, back and forth
between memories and feelings, as he recalled watching Yugi grow up, as he too
grew and changed, from a pharaoh, to a spirit with no memory, to the entity
known as Yami. They were both calming and upsetting at once, and his frown
returned once more as his soul ached with his resolution.
I chose to trust him… that was a decision I made not as
Atemu, but as I am now. I am no longer the pharaoh of Khemet, I am the friend a
small boy wished for, and if I have to wither away in silence till the end of
my existence than so be it! His thoughts rang
loud with conviction, and the air shifted as Yugi’s mind was alerted.
Yami, you alright?
Yugi asked, sounding a little hesitant, and Yami tried not to flinch.
I am fine, Yugi, just a passing thought. He hoped Yugi had only been alarmed by his emotions
and not the words themselves, and it seemed that the gods took pity on him as
Yugi relaxed and returned to his class, the barrier still up between them.
Yami closed his eyes. His insides still squirmed
uncomfortably, but at least he felt like he could face Yugi without collapsing
inside. With a deep breath Yami relaxed, gazing tiredly at nothing. It seemed
all he did anymore was worry and fear and contemplate the things he’d already
set to rest. It was amazingly tiring.
He suddenly understood why it was that Anzu always seemed
snappish and cranky at the end of the day. He definitely knew how a Soap Opera
felt now, and he was glad that at least he didn’t have to worry about any
pregnant cousins name Shirley showing up.
No, instead I get Kaiba purposefully stepping onto my
toes… Yami thought with a little annoyance. He’s
got Jonouchi… if he ever gets his head out of his ass long enough to notice the
blond… so why is he glomming onto my aibou for?
He already knew the answer to that question, but wasn’t quite ready to face up
to his actions, and Seto’s sudden revenge for the beating he’d received on the
roof was the least of his problems.
Everyone had been antsy around him, and most with good
reason, though no one felt right telling Yugi just how hard they had fallen
without him.
We all assumed that you needed us Aibou, that you
were the one that could not live without our guidance, yet somehow we’d
switched roles along the way, and it was us that needed you, me that needed
your guidance. His thoughts brought on memories
that filled his mouth with bitter fear, and he clenched his hands as he
recalled the pain he’d felt as he’d reached out for Yugi when he’d been in the
Valley of Gathering Souls, only to pass right through him.
It was his worst nightmare, perhaps that was the reason
he didn’t embrace Yugi when he’d been returned. He was afraid that he’d again,
pass right through his light and be left alone again.
The color of the walls shifted between boredom and
calmness; Yami watched it in mild interest. Back in Khemet he had not been able
to see such things, and Yugi was nearly unreadable to him. Seemed almost alien
to him now, after spending two years inside the comfort of his light.
“Would we lose all of this, our link, if Rebecca’s idea
had been done?” Yami asked the silence of the room, unsure if that would have
been good or bad for the both of them.
“But why not? Darling, you don’t have to stay like
this anymore! That parasitic pharaoh could have his own body, and you’d never
have to suffer anymore!” Rebecca cried, clinging to Yugi’s arm in the early
morning after the miracle that had returned Yugi to them.
Anzu was
looking at the floor, obviously not wanting to say anything for one reason or
another, Jonouchi was looking annoyed, and Honda looked as though he agreed
with the girl.
Yami
felt the sting at the brunette’s actions, yet he understood that Honda had only
jut begun to forgive him for his behavior, and the girl had hated him from the
moment he’d gambled with his soul and lost Yugi’s instead. He really couldn’t
say that he liked the brat either, but he couldn’t blame her for her anger,
that didn’t mean that he didn’t wish to send her to the shadow realm for her
cruel—if true—words.
“He’s
not a parasite!” Yugi argued, and the vehemence in his thoughts eased Yami’s
own anger, and he relaxed a bit in the soft comfort of his light’s soul. “…
he’s… important to me, and I only jut got him back.” Yugi said with a blush,
and Yami smiled at the tender feelings that passed clearly between them through
their hypersensitive link.
“Sorry,
Rebecca,” Yugi began again, obviously upset with himself for yelling at the
bookish girl who now looked like she’d been struck. “… I think Yami would like
his own body, and if he wants it, I’ll gladly go with him, but for now I would
rather be as close to mou hitori no boku as I can for a while.”
Everyone
in the room blinked at the term, not hearing it in so long that its usage now
seemed more significant that the rest of his speech.
Honda
looked away with a small glare but seemed to back down from his stance at
Yugi’s words, but Rebecca seemed less inclined to listen, being as she barely
knew Yugi the time that Yami had been known as the ‘Other Yugi.’
“How—“
Her words were cut short by the steady hand that Sugoroku placed on her.
“That’s
enough, Yugi’s made his decision and that’s that.” Sugoroku said in that all
knowing way that he had. Yami felt a little humbled as he recognized the tone
to be the same one he’d used to drag him out of bed.
Rebecca
made a grunting sound of defeat as she slumped, crossing her arms over her
chest. “Fine, but I don’t see why not. I wouldn’t want to be possessed by that
creep.”
“Well,
that ain’t your choice, its Yug’s and Yami’s.” Jonouchi jumped in, sounding
quite angry with the blond child, and he received a glare from Rebecca for his
interruption.
“Rebecca.”
Anzu began, looking up for the first time and the soft look the blue eyed girl
had was calming. “I think what Yugi means is that he’d like things to be normal
for a while before anymore changes happen to him. Not that he thinks your plan
was useless and stupid.”
Rebecca
sighed, somehow subdued, and nodded once, setting the printed plan on the table
and turning from the group. “Whatever.” From her tense shoulders, Yami was
certain that the girl hadn’t let go as much as she wanted everyone to think,
but he didn’t bother relaying that to Yugi. The smaller duelist already felt
bad enough for making the girl angry in the first place.
Aibou…
Yes Yami? Yugi responded quickly, somehow happier
by just the sound of Yami’s inquiry in his mind.
… I am glad that you are
back, and I’m sure Rebecca is as well, so don’t be upset.
…thank you Yami. Yugi said with a smile that Yami
could feel through the link, and the spirit basked in its warmth a while
longer, ignoring the concerned looks his friends gave them as they conversed.
He was certain that they knew when Yugi spoke to him, and their fear made him
uncomfortable, but with the way he’d been acting recently, he couldn’t really
blame them either. So, he ignored them all together, things would smooth over
soon enough, he hoped.
Yami let his eyes drift closed in lazy relaxation. He was
over thinking things again and avoiding the things he couldn’t change or
control. It’s time to stop running. I need to confront Yugi, and ask him
if what I remember is true… or not… Yami
sighed, already disliking the prospect. … even if it kills me.
After all, he had an
escape.
It was in the shape of a stack of papers set in
Sugoroku’s study. If he used those he could leave Yugi and free him from the
nightmare he’d caused if what he feared was indeed true.
If it was true.
^^^^^
The air outside had turned chill with the biting sense of
fall, and the sharper smells of autumn assaulted the noses of the small ring of
friends seated under the wilting cherry tree eating their lunches. It wouldn’t
be long before the harsher elements of the cold weather forced them inside the
cafeteria for lunch, but until then they seemed content to escape to their
little haven.
“Katsuya,” Anzu
snarled her chopsticks poised over Jonouchi’s hand like a poised cobra, and her
voice was it’s deadly venom. “If you want to keep your manhood I suggest you
keep your grubby paws out of my bento! And don’t even start complaining about
the ‘paws’ comment or I’ll bring your master over here to remind you why you
should be a good puppy.”
The blonde’s jaw dropped in shock at the words that fell
from the usually non-threatening friend, and promptly replaced the tempura he’d
stolen.
“Thank you.” Anzu said her lips pursed as she continued
to pop rice into her mouth.
“Woah, Jonouchi I think you’ve been stealing munchies for
too long.” Honda teased, looking quite amused by Anzu’s sudden defensiveness.
“She even used your first name… she’s out for blood man.” The brunette male
wisely left the whole master/puppy thing out of the conversation, though Yugi
was secretly dying to know what she meant by it.
He wanted to laugh at it, like any other joke, but seeing
as Jonouchi had yet to actually get upset over it, it seemed as though there
had been at least a fragment of truth in her comment. They have been
acting rather friendly towards each other lately… what happened between them
while I was gone? Yugi wondered while nibbling
on his own meal barely tasting the food.
Kaiba’s been acting weird since I came back, and
hasn’t picked an actual fight with Jou since… almost like, he’s somehow
respecting him in a way… Yugi sighed, half
wondering if Kaiba had somehow regained a few memories of his own concerning a
certain blond guard, but at the same time he doubted that the CEO would ever
admit to having memories from another life, so that theory was shot to hell.
Whatever it was, Yugi was pleased by the implications. Being
gay would be much easier if I wasn’t the only one of my friends that was… Yugi purposefully avoided the part of his mind that
reminded him that Bakura and Ryo were also quite into each other. The thought
of connecting with the thief on any level left him feeling queasy. I
don’t think Grandpa would be too thrilled to have a repeat of last time anyway…
The time Yugi had invited Ryo and Malik over for a ‘light
and dark’ celebration before Malik left to return to Egypt; where Bakura and
Yami had gotten into a Shadow Game that resulted in the salt and pepper shakers
dancing around the room on legs made of sliver wear, was still a sore subject
for the elderly Mouto, and the ban placed on Bakura had yet to be lifted.
“What do you expect? You’ve been stealing my food for… years!” Anzu snapped pointing her chopsticks accusingly at
the blond while Honda laughed seeming to enjoy the punishment his best friend
as receiving from the girl he used to help pick on with the panty-tank.
Yugi smiled as well, unable to block out the enjoyable
feelings bubbling up inside. It felt good to be in the presence of his friends,
though sometimes he felt a little nostalgic at the loss of Anuksu.
Once and a while, when Anzu would talk so
enthusiastically about her dance class, Yugi would feel his chest tighten and
he’d suddenly wish for the witty, sarcastic belly dancer, but then it would
pass with a smile and pat from Anzu. I hope she’s all right… I never did get to say goodbye…
“Hey, I can’t help it if your food looks good!” Jonouchi
snapped, finally backed far enough into a corner to fight back, and Anzu gave
him a mocking look.
“Oh, so its my fault for having a lunch?”
“Yes.”
“That’s a stupid argument! How can my having lunch be a
catalyst for your grifting it?” Anzu asked, bristling as Jonouchi continued to
push her buttons.
“Yeah, well if you paid more attention to what was going
on around you, I wouldn’t have been able to steal your shrimp!”
“I was trying to listen to Yugi since you said he had
something important to tell us! I didn’t know you’d said that just to get into
my—put the sausage down and you wont get hurt!”
“Damn Anzu, its just food.” Jonouchi said dropping the
item, flustered that she’d noticed. Maybe he was doing it too often.
Honda chuckled as he turned back to Yugi, juice in hand.
“So, was it a lie then Yugi?”
Yugi suddenly wished the conversation had stayed on food.
“Uh… well, not… no, it wasn’t.” Yugi choked out, his face feeling as though
he’d lit a match under his chin. C’mon, you said you’d get this off of
your chest… you have to come clean if you want to move forward… and that means
asking them for advice. Yugi told himself
sternly as Anzu stopped battling Jonouchi and turned to him, missing Jonouchi’s
swift motion as he stole the sausage again, thins time eating it before she
could notice its absence.
“What is it Yugi?” Anzu asked, concerned, even as her
chopsticks embedded themselves into Jonouchi’s hand as he tried to steal
something more. With a yelp he pulled away and pouted, before turning back to
Yugi.
“Yeah, so what was so important this morning that you
needed to discuss with all of us?”
Yugi swallowed the large lump that formed in his esophagus.
How will they react? … can I handle it if they turn away from me? Yugi felt suddenly feverish, and sweat gathered on
his brow and under his arms.
No matter how many times he’d prepared himself for this
conversation, actually coming out of the closet was harder and more frightening
than he’d supposed it to be. But, I can’t ask for their help without
telling them everything… Taking a deep breath Yugi looked around his
ring of friends, and nearly chickened out at the almost knowing looks on their
faces.
Anzu glanced towards Jonouchi who kept looking at Honda
as though he expected the brunette to do something stupid, but his quiet friend
just sat there, staring at Yugi with a detached sort of understanding. Yugi
blinked, unsure of what the looks were about and he looked away from them all
and into his lunch pail, his hands clutching the plastic sides hard enough for
the tips of his fingertips to turn a sickly white.
“I…I… look, while I was back in…” His mouth felt cotton
dry, and his throat felt like he’d swallowed a hand full of sand. He hoped his
racing heart didn’t wake Yami, but from the silence in the link, he was certain
the spirit was unaware of his anxiety. Well… its now… or never…
“I’m gay!” Yugi suddenly spat out, his eyes clenched shut
to block out the reactions, and his fingers trembling around his food.
The silence was painful as Yugi waited for their
responses, and the sound of the wind in the dying leaves was deafening to him. Oh
god.. that wasn’t… kami-sama I screwed that one up… Opening a frightened eye, Yugi held his breath as he scanned his
friends faces, anything but ready to accept their looks of disgust.
“… guys?” Yugi asked when he found Jonouchi and Anzu just
looking at him, eating their lunches as though they were waiting for him to
continue, like he had yet to say something they didn’t already know.
“Yeah, Yug’?” Jonouchi asked calmly, munching on a
sandwich.
Yugi blinked, and started to wonder if he’d actually said
anything at all, and looked over towards Honda who was looking down at his
hands. Yugi couldn’t tell if he was uncomfortable or just coming to grips with
something, and so decided that he had said
that he was gay. .. So then… why aren’t they reacting?
“Yugi, you look pale, you okay?” Anzu asked, placing a
cool hand to his forehead. “You don’t have to finish if you’re that upset…”
Anzu added shooting a worried look at Jonouchi who fiddled uncomfortably, his
calm mood suddenly gone.
“Yeah, Yug’ I mean… we’re here to listen and all… that
is, if you’re ready to talk about it… damn, that is—“
“Fuck.” Yugi jumped at the explicit that escaped from
Honda’s mouth. “What did he do to you?”
Yugi pulled closer to Anzu at the murderous look in his
friend’s eyes and tried to calm down, not quite sure what was happening.
“W—who?”
“That bastard pharaoh, did he rape you?” Honda asked,
somehow unusually blunt, and Yugi choked on air suddenly feeling like he was
trapped in a nightmare. W—what?! R—rape? Where the hell did they… how
long have they…
“Honda!” Anzu scolded, wrapping a comforting arm around
Yugi’s shoulders as Jonouchi glowered at the brunette.
“Could you be a little more insensitive, moron?”
“Well, its better to get this over with rather than
pussy-footing around the damn problem! Rip it off like a band-aid!” Honda
snapped, and Yugi realized that his earlier fidgeting had been concern.
“This is a little bigger than a band-aid, getting raped
by one’s other self is not—“
“What the hell are you talking about?!” Yugi snapped,
finally having enough of their weird accusations. Glaring around the circle of
friends, Yugi watched as their faces mixed with concern and pity, and felt the
tell-tale anger that usually came with thoughts of Pragus. The burn was a
comfort and he straightened up, pinning them all with a withering glare. “I
just told you that I am gay, not a rape victim! So how the hell did you come up
with that?!”
Anzu looked relieved and a little shocked, and he
preferred her expression to that of his other friends who looked utterly
confused. “So… Yami didn’t—“
“No he didn’t!”
Yugi hissed, at the end of his rope. “If anything I seduced him in the end, and
now I’ve been without for a month, I’m horny as hell and I don’t know if Yami
still wants me, and I don’t know why he’s acting all distant and I wanted your
advice but I thought you’d think I was sick for being gay, so I came out first
and then you ask if.. if… god, all of you are acting so weird!” Yugi rambled
out in a single breath, before collapsing into a gasping fit, sill on his anger
high allowing him to escape embarrassment for the moment.
Anzu had turned red and looked like she was quite ready
to pass out, a hand cradled to her mouth. “Oh…” Was her breathy response, which
brought Yugi back to the present, and with a startled gasp he felt his face
heat. Oh Kami I am screwing this up…
“Oh, wow Yug’ I’m sorry, you just looked so horrified
that we thought…” Jou trailed off looking at Honda who had reclined against the
tree with a scowl, seemingly out of the conversation. “Heh, so, what’s this
about Yami being distant?”
Yugi felt his eye twitch. Were they trying to drive him
mad? “Jou, why did you all think that… that Yami… Atemu…” Yugi couldn’t even
finish the thought, as—unbidden—the memory of their first encounter in the bath
flashed though his mind. Gods, no, he stopped and… I didn’t… really
mind…. Yugi flushed again, and hoped Jonouchi thought it was because of
the topic and not because Yugi really had been assaulted.
The group became tense and quiet, and Yugi had the urge
to throw things, but held back. “Guys! I’m sick of being kept in the dark! What
the hell happened? Why is Yami acting weird, why are you guys so distant
towards him? Why did you think he…” Yugi swallowed, “And why the hell is Kaiba hugging
me?!”
His last comment drew a laugh from Jonouchi and Yugi
hoped that the blond would expound but he didn’t, and Yugi almost decided to
throw his bento at his friend’s head when Honda spoke up.
“Kaiba’s pissing Yami off ‘cause Yami lost it while you
were gone, and beat the shit out of him on the roof.” Honda said in a bored
voice, and Yugi felt his jaw drop in disbelief.
Sure he knew Yami hated Kaiba and visa versa, but to
actually get into a fistfight? Looking at Jonouchi for confirmation Yugi caught
the pained look of remembrance and felt his stomach drop. Yami lost it…
because I was gone?
“… Why?” Yugi whispered, and Honda sighed bracing his
head against the tree trunk.
“’Cause you were gone, and he kept having these flashes
of memory where he was certain that he’d rape you, and so he was going mad with
guilt and his need to play hero and he was as useless as the rest of us for
once.” Honda’s voice carried a tinge of vindictiveness, and Yugi was struck by
a fact he’d never thought of before. Is Honda jealous of Yami? That he’s
able to help me more directly than him?
“… so he thinks he…” Yugi trailed off with a sigh,
flopping down beside Anzu. “I thought he remembered everything.”
“He does.” Anzu tried to comfort, but Yugi just laughed
humorlessly.
“Then he should know that I wanted him, that I said… I
told him that I loved him, and he wouldn’t be acting like touching me would
turn him to stone.”
“Yugi…” Anzu sighed, her hand slipping from his back.
“… well you know Yug’, Yami’s been taking your
disappearance pretty hard, we all have…” Jonouchi looked away in shame at that
and Yugi glanced back at Anzu when Honda tensed, and found her looking like she
might break.
Did he really mean that much to everyone? The thought had
never occurred to him before. He knew he was a friend, and he’d worry about
them if they’d gone missing, but from the way they were reacting, he had the
feeling that it wasn’t as simple as that. It was almost as thought they’d given
up hope.
“Guys…” Yugi bit his lip unsure of what to say. He hadn’t
exactly been able to call upon their friendship while back in time, but the
memories of what he’d learned from them had helped him, even if he hadn’t
consciously realized it, and it seemed that at least Honda needed to know about
it. “… You know, when I was there, I felt so alone. Yami was gone… completely
and I couldn’t find him, then when I did, he didn’t know me, at all. It hurt,
and I was sure I was all alone…” Yugi paused smiling as he caught Jonouchi’s
eyes and then Anzu’s. “But then I found you guys, they were you, but not you,
and they reminded me that you guys were waiting for me back here and I knew I
wasn’t alone at all. I had Jonoh the Guard and Anuksu the palace dancer.”
Jonouchi gave a half smile, and Anzu blushed. Turning to
Honda Yugi met his gaze and held it. “And though I didn’t have you around,
Honda your words kept me strong. You once snuck on a ship to follow me and
support me on my quest to save my grandfather, and somehow I knew that you
would have done the same this time as well had you had the chance. Knowing that
you were all here waiting, it kept me going when even Yami was gone, so thank
you.”
The brunette gave him a look, his lips quirking slightly
and Yugi smiled wider, feeling lighter. “Thank you, for being my friends. You
don’t know how much I rely on all of you…”
His words seemed to mend them a little and they sat up
straighter, Jou pulling him into a noogie. “Aww, stop being such a sap!”
Yugi laughed around the action, gripping Jonouchi’s arm
lightly to keep from strangling in the friendly embrace. “Jou…”
“Yeah, it’s time to move forward, and help with the Yami
problem.” Anzu said helpfully and it brought Yugi back around to his original
plan.
“You guys really okay with it?” He asked a little
uncertain, and received confused looks from his friends.
“Okay with what Yug?”
Yugi flushed and tapped his fingers together. “My being…
in love with Yami.”
“Yugi, I think you’re the only one that didn’t know.”
Anzu said gently and Yugi looked up startled.
“Really?” He hadn’t thought he’d been that transparent,
but from the happy look on Anzu’s face, and the smirk on Jonouchi’s he found he
must have been.
“Yug’, you’ve been head’s over heels for the guy since he
first arrived like your knight in shining leather.” Jonouchi laughed at his own
joke and it made Yugi smile, suddenly feeling like crying in relief.
Everything was going to be fine.
“Honda?” Yugi asked, turning with happy eyes to his final
friend and missed the worried looks that Anzu and Jonouchi shared behind him.
His last friend was still leaning against the tree, his
face unreadable. For a moment there was nothing but the sound of the wind and
Yugi’s hopeful breathing, as the group waited for Honda’s final verdict.
“… I think he’s being a cautious bastard.” Honda quipped
looking up into Yugi’s eyes with a soft look of resignation. “He’s never going
to change. If you want your happy ending you’re probably going to have to trap
him and lay everything out in simple terms and jump him, otherwise, your
pharaoh is just going to worry himself bald and suffer in his pity party,
drowning on bottles of guilt.”
The image made Yugi laugh as he nodded, “Thanks Honda,
your right I probably will have to jump Yami… I just hope he still wants me.”
“Yugi…” Anzu began but was cut off by a very sharp Honda.
“He better, cause I’ll personally kick his ass if he
hurts you.” The stoic friend suddenly flushed at his admittance and sat back
with a huff as Jonouchi started to cheer.
“Yeah, you show him Honda!”
“Shove it, Jonouchi…”
“Touchy.”
“I’ll show you touchy!” Honda said menacingly, but
Jonouchi seemed to be suicidal today as he just smirked.
“Ooh, I thought you only did that with Otogi…”
“That’s it! You’re dead!” Honda jumped to his feet ready
to strangle the blond when Anzu piped up, always the voice of reason.
“Wait, there’s still one problem.”
“What?” Yugi asked, nervous now at his first friend’s
exclamation, and wondered what could possibly be on her mind. What did I
miss?
“Yami’s just a spirit, how can they be together if
they’re in the same body?”
Yugi blushed, pondering if he should bring up the fact
that Yami could become solid for a few hours outside of his body and if that
didn’t work there was always the option of using their soul rooms, but was
mercifully saved by Jonouchi.
“Don’t be stupid, he can become solid, remember, he did
it that time we all hung out and took pictures?”
Honda didn’t comment as he stood with his hands still
around Jonouchi’s neck, but no longer choking. He did blink a little as though
Jonouchi’s explanation had not been what he’d been thinking of, but he didn’t
make a comment on it.
“But its very tiring for him, remember he had that head
ache, and on top of that, Yami’s always complaining about taking up Yugi’s
life, somehow I doubt he’ll change his mind just because of this.” Anzu stated,
again the voice of that damnable reason. “In fact it’ll probably make it
worse.”
Yugi felt his stomach drop as he realized that she was
right, and swallowed, feeling suddenly adrift. Does that mean… we can’t
be together? Just as the group was starting to
panic, Honda gave a suffering sigh and rolled his eyes at them as if they were
all blind.
“C’mon guys, I know a lots happened but its only been a
month since this problem was solved.” Honda sighed again when Yugi blinked at
him curiously, for once not understanding a word his friend was saying. “Use
Rebecca’s plan and give him his own body.” Honda supplied sounding bored, and
Yugi blinked in confusion before remembering the master plan the small blond
had given him. Oh, that’s right, Rebecca had mentioned that… how could I
forget that one, duh, Yugi it’s only the answer to your every wet dream… Yugi grinned to himself, feeling rather silly as he
responded with the clichéd:
“You’re right,” and grinned widely at the thought of
having Yami in the flesh. Oh, that’d be great! He’d be able to do
everything we do! He can live in my room and we can cuddle, and play games, and
go to school together! It’d be perfect! “Honda you’re a genius!” Yugi cried, and his
friend gave his head a small tilt.
“You only realizing this now?”
“Get over your self prema-Honda.” Jonouchi shot back,
quickly reinstating their fight.
“I’ll get the things together, Grandpa can help with the
preparations, and then…” Yugi broke off suddenly as yet another problem struck
him.
“Yugi? What’s wrong?” Anzu asked, the only one not busy
fighting.
“… how can I tell grandpa?”
For a moment she seemed not to comprehend what he was
saying, but after a moment she smiled, pulling Yugi into a hug.
“Yugi, I think you know more than any of us, that your
grandpa only wants you to be happy, and I’m pretty sure he already knows that
Yami makes you happy.”
“You think?” Yugi asked, needing reassurance and his
friend smiled, pinching his cheek.
“I know.”
“Thanks Anzu.” Yugi said, looking up to blue eyes he’d
once sworn he loved. The friendship he found in them was a relief and he was
glad that he’d never been able to make a move before.
“Now, telling your mom, might be tough, I suggest you
tell her Yami’s an exchange student and leave it at that for a while.” Anzu
advised and Yugi laughed.
“Yeah, telling her the truth now might just kill her.”
The scuffling sounds of playful fighting continued as the
chill wind blew by, stealing the moment into time as the day wore on, and the
mending of hearts began after the stasis that had been placed after Yugi’s
return.
“Hey, I just thought of something…” Jonouchi piped up as
Honda gave up trying to kill him. “… If you jump Yami now, wouldn’t that be
masturbation?”
“Uhg, gross Jonouchi…” Anzu groaned, and turned back to
Honda missing the sudden light that seemed to click on inside of Jonouchi’s
mind after that statement.
“No seriously guys, don’t you…Oh!” Jonouchi looked at
Yugi, and Yugi felt his face flush, somehow knowing where this was going. Oh
no… please no, not that…
It seemed karma had
caught up with him.
“So that was your
nightmare!”
“Jonouchi!”
^^^^^
“Thanks for walking me home
Jou.” Yugi said with a pleasant smile as they rounded the last bend in the
road. The Kame Game shop was just down the street, Yugi could see the brightly
colored roof from where they stood, and again he felt his stomach clench with
uncertain fear.
“Not a problem, I’m just surprised that Yami’s actually
staying out of your head for so long.” Jonouchi quipped, still a bit shocked at
Yugi’s confession when he’d asked the blond for moral support when he came out
to his grandfather.
Though Anzu’s words had eased his fear at lunch, four
hours had a way of destroying such calm.
“Yeah, but its just like Anzu said,” Yugi admitted with a
deep breath of the luke-warm air. The sun was slanted and tawny in the
dwindling evening, casting long shadows upon the pavement. It was the time of
day that made Yugi think of his childhood when summer nights seemed to take
forever to come and he’d come running home chasing after his shadow, as though
trying to catch up.
Trying to catch my shadow… Yugi smiled again, pleased with the irony before continuing with his
explanation before Jonouchi had time to become annoyed with him. “Yami’s always
been afraid of “stealing” my time from me. He always said it was like living my
life for me, and he felt he didn’t have that right. I guess after what’s
happened he’s become even more wary of it.” Yugi sighed. “I wish he’d stop
worrying.”
“Yeah, well Yami’s not the game playing pharaoh we all
know and love if he isn’t worrying himself sick over your well being and
placing all who hurt you under shadow game penalties.” Jonouchi was laughing,
though Yugi had the feeling that the comment had held more truth to it than
Jonouchi wanted to share.
“Was it really that bad?” Yugi asked, feeling more guilt
weigh down his conscious.
“Well… it was really bad, I’m not going to lie to you
Yug’.” Jonouchi said, scratching the back of his neck a bit uncomfortably.
“What happened?” Yugi pressed, looking up at his friend.
“I mean, you, Anzu, and Honda are all acting really cold towards Yami now. I
just don’t understand what happened.”
Jonouchi struggled a bit with his words, and side-stepped
a quickly running child playing a game of tag with his buddies on the side
walk, before answering. “You know, its not really my place to tell. When Yams’
ready to tell ya, he will.”
“That’s not really helpful, you know.”
“Yeah, well I doubt you want to divulge all those gory
details about your first time with the pharaoh now do ya?”
Yugi felt his face heat up and he spluttered, and
Jonouchi laughed loud, clapping Yugi on the back as he chuckled enjoying the
moment with his friend. The sharp motion stung a little, and Yugi stumbled
momentarily expecting his back to burn a little more before remembering that
his back didn’t have the scar tissue on it anymore, nor the sunburn from
before.
“In all honesty Yugi,” Jonouchi began, his arm looped
comfortably over Yugi’s shoulders, and the weight was somehow comforting as
they drew ever closer to the shop. “I don’t think any of us were prepared for
the consequences of your absence, least of all Yami. I think he was still
suffering from the stress of loosing your soul in that game, and this was
almost like a smack to the face for him. The rest of us… well, we weren’t ready
for him to lose it, and we all fell to pieces.”
Yugi winced, scuffing his toe into the ground. “Oh…”
“But don’t worry, we all pulled back together at the end
there, and right now, I think we’re all just coming to grips with it all.” He
laughed again shaking his head. “I mean, Honda actually helped out this time,
so he must be accepting things as they are.”
“What do you mean?” Yugi asked, his curiosity piqued, but
Jonouchi just coughed and turned away with a nervous chuckle.
“Nothing, Yug’, just… go a little easy on the details of
your relationship with him okay? He’s a little… homophobic you know?” Jonouchi
whispered the last conspiratorially, and Yugi gasped, his mouth forming an ‘o’
shape of understanding.
So, that’s what he meant… Yugi nodded his head in agreement with Jonouchi as they stepped up to
the house, and as expected Sugoroku was out front sweeping the porch.
His grandfather did that everyday. Ever since the
accident, as if this was his own therapeutic treatment, and stability: he
greeted Yugi very day in place of his father, and his mother worked her self
into a ghost. He’d long decided that things could have been worse and just grew
accustomed with the new life he had, but at the moment, he wished his
grandfather had had a different quirk.
“Hey, gramps!” Jonouchi called out, giving Yugi a small
shove when he noticed the smaller duelist’s tense stance in t doorway.
“Oh, hello Jou, you staying for dinner? Yugi didn’t
mention we’d have company.” Sugoroku responded kindly, giving Yugi a patient
look, filled with concern and Yugi found it hard to meet those steady plumb
colored eyes.
“Naw, I just walked Yugi home. We had a lot to talk
about.” Jonouchi interrupted, and Yugi noticed the look that the blond was
giving him.
It was a light threat, calmly announcing that if Yugi
didn’t say something son, his moral support would leave him on his own. Jou…
Yugi whined mentally, looking nervously between
his best friend and grandfather.
Sugoroku, having once been a master gamer himself, was
most likely well aware of Yugi’s unease and Jonouchi’s not so subtle looks.
“Oh, anything I should know about?” Sugoroku asked,
holding his broom in his hands carefully.
Yugi felt his pulse jump, and this time Yami sent him
questioning feeling because of it a Yugi felt his insides twist. Shit,
Yami knows we’re home… damn, if I don’t say it soon Yami will hear everything
when I do finally tell Grandpa and then that would just be awkward… Yugi ignored the part of his mind that told him that
things were all ready weird what with him telling everyone else about his
feelings aside from the one who really should know. I already told him,
he’s just too stupid to believe it! Yugi told
himself harshly as he finally found the courage to look up at his grandfather.
“Well, that’s actually why I’m—“ Jonouchi was cut off as
Yugi broke in. If he didn’t do it now, he’d lose his nerve and if he couldn’t
face his grandfather, there was no chance he’d be able to face Yami.
“Jii-chan, I don’t know how you ay feel about this, but I
think that I should say something to you since this is your house, and in order
for me to have what I want I’ll need your full support.” Yugi heard his own
voice as if through a radio. It sounded far away and distorted: not quite his
own.
“Okay Yugi, what is it you need?” Sugoroku asked, and
Yugi lost his words for a frightening moment. What if he kicks me out?
Or says no… Yugi swallowed hard and felt the
comforting weight of Jonouchi’s hand on his shoulder.
The slight curl on fingers reminded him that even if it
did go wrong, he always had a place to go, and if Yami couldn’t stay with him
he could always go with Jonouchi or one of his other friends, or so they had
said.
“Yugi?” Sugoroku sounded a little frightened now, and
Yugi felt that ever persistent emotion called guilt, tear away at his insides.
“Grandpa… I… I’m in love with Yami, and I want to give
him his own body so we can… be together if he wants… and I… I—“ Yugi closed his
eyes again at some point in his speech, attempting to regain his courage that
was quickly leaking out of his body, and forced them open when his Grandfathers
weathered old hand landed ob his head gently.
He held his breath as he looked up into the kind eyes
he’d known his whole life and felt his body relax in a sort of heated numbness,
when he noticed the soft crinkled skin at the corners of those eyes, and the
understanding smile that softened his face.
“You grew up quite a bit when I wasn’t looking, didn’t
you Yugi?”
The sudden burn of tears in his eyes made Yugi sniffle.
His nose and lips felt funny with his repressed joy and he rubbed at them in a
useless attempt to ward off his tears.
“See Yug’, we all told ya he’d be fine with it.” Jonouchi
said helpfully, and patted Yugi’s shoulder as the small duelist managed to
control his wayward emotions, just as his Yami had decided that he’d had enough
with the roller coaster ride.
Aibou, is everything all right?
Yeah,
Yami, everything’s fine. I was just worrying over something I shouldn’t have. Yugi replied, practically radiating joy, and felt
Yami relax inside him.
Oh, well, if you are sure…
I am, thanks for worrying. Yugi returned feeling the spirit return to his soul room as soon as he
noticed the others near Yugi, giving him his privacy.
“… he awake now?” Jonouchi asked, and at Yugi’s nod he
turned with a smirk. “Well then, on that note, I leave ya to smack some sense
into your lover.”
“Jonouchi!” Yugi cried, now thourally embarrassed, only
to have his friend laugh at his exclamation, and wave jubilantly back at him as
he disappeared down the street, in the direction opposite of his house, but
directly towards the Kaiba mansion.
“I take it Yami doesn’t know yet?” Sugoroku questioned
before Yugi could ponder Jonouchi’s destination further, and Yugi turned back
with a light blush, not certain how his grandfather would take his next
statement.
“No, he knows, he just doesn’t seem to believe it or
something…” Yugi muttered, looking at his shoes.
Sugoroku chuckled deep in his chest and ruffled Yugi’s
hair. “Well then, I guess I’ll take up Yoshimori on that offer to get a drink
tonight, since your mother is down in Tokyo for work.”
Yugi felt his jaw slacken with shock as the elderly Mouto
set his broom aside and casually entered the shop, flipping the sign on the
door signaling that the shop was closed for the night.
“W—what?” Yugi stammered, running in after his
grandfather and dumping his bag beside the counter as Sugoroku made the last
minute checks on the register.
“Well, you want to be alone with Yami right?” Sugoroku
said, just a little too comfortable with that thought for Yugi’s comfort. “I’m
assuming that while you were back there you two… ahem… consummated your
feelings?”
“Jii-chan!” Yugi
gasped, face changing from pale shock to cranberry red in record time.
“How—what—why—uh… b…but…”
The elderly man waved his hand in a dismissing gesture as
he closed the drawer with a resounding chime. “Come on now Yugi, was young once
too, give me some credit.”
Yugi snapped his mouth shut instantly having no urge to
say anything to that statement. How the hell did things turn out this
way? I’m not sure which is worse his complete ease with my revelations or the
idea of him finding me disgusting…
“Now, that does not mean that I want to hear you two
expressing your feelings.” Sugoroku said bluntly and Yugi almost fell over his
back as he forgot how to walk. “Now, I really don’t care what your preference
is so long as you are happy, but I am old and personally would not like to be
plagued by the mental images of my grandson making love to his partner late at
night while trying to sleep as you two—“
“I get it!” Yugi cried, smacking his hands over his ears
in an attempt to block out his grandfather’s words. “Thank you for your kind
offer, I hope you have with Yoshimori, and believe me I’ll be more than
impotent while your home.” Yugi gasped out, his chest heaving in mortified
horror.
Who the hell needed birth control or sex ed lessons with
a grandfather like his. Just get him talking and you’ll have one non-sexual
being.
“Okay then.” Sugoroku said, as though reading Yugi’s
mind. He paused to call Yoshimori as Yugi collapsed at the kitchen table,
laying his forehead on the cool surface in mild agony. I should have
kept quiet…
“I’ll be going now Yugi, it seems Arthur is back in town
and wants to go over his findings with me. I’ll probably stay out late, so if
I’m not back or awake by nine, open the shop for me?”
“Sure.” Yugi said just glad to be back to a normal
conversation.
“I’ll ask about the details to your ritual while I’m
out.” Sugoroku continued grabbing his coat on his way out.
“Thanks Grandpa.”
“Oh!” Sugoroku turned around quickly, his look stern. “I
almost forgot Yugi.”
Riveted to his seat, Yugi turned curious of what it was
that his Grandfather was so worried about. It seemed rather important to him,
and he couldn’t help but wonder what it could be.
“There’s non-scented lotion in my bathroom cupboard, it’ll
come in handy tonight. I’m sure Yami will know—“
“Goodbye!” Yugi cried, his hands once again pressed over
his ears like a vice as his grandfather left with a good-natured chuckle.
I’ll never get an erection again as long as I
live… Yugi thought sadly as he slumped further
into his seat. “Why couldn’t I have a normal grandfather? One that would freak
out at the notion of me having sex?”
The gods seemed
disinclined to answer.
^^^^^
The soft feel of cotton against his newly washed,
tingling skin felt blissful, and Yugi moaned in satisfaction, stretching out
his arms and back delighting in the full rage of motion he got from his un
injured arms and back.
“Oh, that feels good.”
Aibou, you act as though you haven’t bathed in years. Yami retorted from inside his mind, the comment light
and playful. Yugi smiled glad to have his dark back.
“Yeah, well after the day I’ve had I’d say I deserved
it.” Yugi shot back with a smile, determinedly ignoring the memory of his
grandfather’s parting words from two hours before.
Was it really that bad? I’m sorry Aibou, had I known you
needed me I—
“No, it’s fine. I was okay, it was just a little
aggravating.” Yugi grinned sitting down upon his bed, pulling his legs up after
him, holding on to his ankles, rocking a little feeling happier than he had all
day.
Oh, well, if you are sure.
Yami responded predictably, and Yugi stopped rocking, his eyes focused on his
lap.
“… Yami?” Yugi asked, feeling his heart flip-flop in his
chest in excitement at the prospect that he was daring to attempt. Well,
when else will I have the opportunity, not to mention the okay?
Yes, Aibou? Yami asked,
and Yugi felt his confusion at his internal thought, and Yugi flushed, biting
his lip.
“I… uhm, I’d like to talk to you about something.”
He could clearly feel Yami’s nervousness, and could only
guess that he thought Yugi was going to tell him the same thing his friends had
thought of at lunch. Yes Aibou?
“Could you come out here… I mean, could you… maybe,
become solid?” Yugi asked timidly, and felt the shock through their shared link
before Yami complied.
The slight burn of separation made Yugi’s breath hitch in
his chest and he squeezed his eyes shut at the uncomfortable sensation.
“Aibou?” Yami’s voice echoed in his mind a bit, proof that
the body he’d taken wasn’t really a body at all but a solid manifestation of
his soul. It was an illusion of truth, but Yugi was in love with the falsity.
“Yami.” Yugi turned, grinning like a fool, but he
couldn’t help himself. The endearment his Yami used warmed him to the core, and
it felt good to hear it so often.
“You needed to talk to me a bout something?” Yami asked,
always on the ball, and in a way, breaking it.
Without much thought Yugi stepped closer, watching the
cautious tracing Yami’s eyes made, and wrapped his dark in his arms.
The gasp was near silent, and Yami’s chest didn’t fill
with air, but it did jerk in shock, and Yugi held tighter, pressing himself as
close to Yami as he physically could. Still it wasn’t close enough.
“Yugi, what…?” Yami asked, and the fact that he’d used
Yugi’s name instead of the usual Aibou, spoke volumes to Yugi.
“I missed you… so much.”
Yami stiffened, struck by Yugi’s words, and that lump of
pain he’d felt the moment he’d woken on the sand alone returned, and Yugi felt
himself struggling to speak around it. “When I woke up in the desert and you
weren’t there… I couldn’t feel you at all… I was so scared.”
Yami twitched in his arms, as though hurt and Yugi
pressed her face into the center of Yami’s chest, breathing in the smell of his
soul, and letting his mind continuously brush against Yami’s for comfort. He
knew he was falling back into that dependant mode he’d been in before, but at
the moment he couldn’t bring himself to care.
“I was certain that you’d come for me, but you never
came.” Yugi admitted to his deepest pain from the trip, and with their minds so
closely pressed it was hard to imagine that Yami didn’t notice Yugi’s sad
attachment to that memory.
The spirit’s reaction was swift and predictable, and Yugi
almost reveled in it. “Aibou, I did try. I wanted to come after you, but I
couldn’t. If I’d left—“
Yugi cut him off, not liking the guilty feelings that
rolled off of his usually calm and determined dark. “I knew you did, but for
some reason I didn’t want to… so I looked for you, and then I found you.”
The jerk Yami made at that part was well felt, and Yugi
inwardly sighed, realizing just how much his darkness believed in the nonsense
his friends had been spouting and he had the urge to smack Yami for his
stupidity. Then again, if my memories were as unreliable as his, I
wouldn’t believe them all either… Yugi thought
to himself, and was glad that Yami hadn’t over heard it.
“I met you, and then I blamed you.” Yugi began, knowing
from the emotions and flashes of memory he received from Yami’s side of the
link that his dark knew exactly what he was referring to with each statement.
“I came to know you, befriended you, danced for you, trusted you… slept with
you…” Yugi trailed off to a whisper at the end as Yami tensed, and he was
certain that if he’d spoken any louder, it would have snapped the spirit in
half.
“Aibou, I’m so sorry…” Yami apologized, his arms
embracing Yugi close to him, and Yugi relaxed, his eyes closing at the words.
Those were the ones that separated Atemu from Yami, the words that let Yugi
know that he was home with his soul partner, his equal. “Aibou, I—I’m so sorry,
I didn’t… it wasn’t… I’m not…”
Yami’s inability to make a coherent sentence was
frightening, and Yugi pulled back away from Yami’s hold to grab his dark’s
face, lifting it up to look into those shattered crimson eyes.
It wasn’t right, seeing such guilt, and pain, and fear in
such a regal face, and Yugi almost cried for the defeat in his eyes. Now he
understood why the group had crumbled. Yami had always been the driving force
of strength amongst them, because he was a true leader, and when he fell apart,
everything else tumbled down with him.
“… I felt guilty Yami.”
Confusion fused into cerise eyes, and Yami blinked
uncomprehendingly at Yugi a moment. “Guilty? But why? Aibou, It was my—“ Again
Yugi cut him short with a press of one finger to his lips.
The heat he felt there made him shiver and Yugi wanted
nothing more than to feel those lips on his own kissing him. He’d known that
mouth once he was almost dying to be reacquainted once more.
“Because it wasn’t you.” Yugi watched as the guilt was
replaced by hope, and the uncertain mess slowly drew together as strength
returned. “… it was you, but not you. It was a you who didn’t know me, who
hadn’t suffered with me through so much, and had called me aibou, and it hurt
me. Because…” Yugi paused, his heart in his throat. He was a little nervous,
but he found it amazingly easy to look up and into Yami’s eyes as he said what
his heart had been dying to say since he first woke up in his soul room one
month before. “I love you, Yami.”
There was stillness for a long time, as a deep calm
seemed to pass over Yami then. His eyes eased closed, and a soft, almost neutral
smile graced his regal mouth.
If he could have breathed, Yugi was certain he would have
done so through his nose. It was like he was letting it all sink into him, and
he was relishing in it. Yugi smiled at the feelings he felt through their bond,
as Yami allowed his doubts to fade.
He’d known the truth all along he was just afraid that
he’d be wrong, and that too was something only his Yami who had been through so
much more than his past self, would do even when given so much proof.
“I had hoped…” Yami began, but he seemed unable to
finish, and Yugi giggled, bringing those passionate eyes back to him and he
shook his head at his other affectionately.
“I know. Sorry, I didn’t say something sooner, I wasn’t
under the impression that you were delusional.” Yugi added, breaking the
tension swiftly. It killed the mood he’d been looking for, but for some reason
he wanted to have a moment of normalcy with his dark, and Yami seemed to need
it as well.
Yami cocked an eyebrow at him, feigning hurt, “Well your
repetitious English class can have that affect on someone.”
Yugi laughed long and hard in agreement. His sides ached
and he clutched them, his cheeks hurting from all the work he’d given them. “I
guess your right, though I am amazed that you managed to turn in a paper for me
and get a passing grade at that!”
Yami smirked, once more confident and strong and Yugi’s
chest practically swelled with joy. “I am the king of games after all.”
Yugi rolled his eyes. “Yeah, right. When you can prove to
me that homework is a game…” Yugi broke off to change his word choice, “…that
English is a game, then I’ll believe that one.”
Yami just gave him a look, dressed in a similar outfit
that mirrored Yugi’s own. Yugi couldn’t help but chuckle to himself when he
noticed that his dark was indeed wearing identical starry pajamas.
What is so funny, Aibou? Yami
asked, tilting his head to the side, and Yugi shook his head, sitting back down
on his bed.
I think I need to get you your own pajamas… Yugi chuckled, looking Yami up and down.
Yami glanced down at his own body, holding his arms out
to the side and tilting his hips from side to side to better see his clothes.
Finally he looked back up. “What? Don’t I look cute in them? You do.”
Yugi grinned, choosing not to react to the cute comment.
“Yami, cute and you… uh… that is…”
“Are you implying that I am not cute, Aibou?” Yami asked
daringly, suddenly leaning down over Yugi’s form, and Yugi laughed, flopping
back onto his back looking up at his dark, hands raised in defense.
“No, I’m just saying that I like you better looking sexy…
you know like in your leather…” Yugi trailed off with a dark blush. Oh
my god did I just say that?
“Yes Aibou, you did.” Yami purred looking pleased and
amused as he climbed upon the bed, from what Yugi could tell ready to continue
their little game, but his mood suddenly changed as he stilled propped above
Yugi’s body.
Yugi blinked up, slightly confused by the end of the good
humor between them, and caught the warm, needy look in those red eyes he always
searched for in a crowd for what felt like forever.
“Yami, what’s wrong?”
“Yugi…” Yami started, his eyes scanning Yugi’s face
before locking onto his own, looking uncertain and a little fearful. “… may I
take you?”
The question both broke and mended his heart all at once.
Yami had asked him as though he doubted he’d be allowed, and yet he need to so
desperately claim him as his own, and for a moment Yugi understood his need.
Yugi had been without for a month, but Yami had been
craving his touch for three millennia.
The spirit took his long silence as uncertainty and
started talking again, almost rambling in his nerves. “I know this is fast…
but, I’ve been meaning to tell you for some time, I just never thought you’d
ever turn to me. You were always looking at Anzu, and then I thought I’d lost
you.” Yami punctuated this statement by running his palm down the side of
Yugi’s face cupping it gently, his thumb stroking his cheek. “I know I’m asking
a lot from you Aibou, and if its too quick for you, I can wait. I will wait…”
Yugi moved forward quickly, silencing Yami with his lips.
The touch was like kissing a battery, and the tingle ran all the way down his
spine. Yugi cooed, loving the missed sensation more than he ever could have
known.
Yami slumped eagerly towards him, is lips pressing gently
to his, keeping the kiss innocent and chaste, simply feeling the closeness this
simple act created. Careful hands slipped around his narrow waist, as Yugi
slipped his own around Yami’s broad shoulders, encouraging a deeper embrace.
Yami released a contented groan, lying upon Yugi’s body
gratefully when Yugi lifted his legs to cradle Yami between them. He felt his
face flush at his forwardness but no embarrassment was felt as Yugi let his
fingers tangle into Yami’s hair, tracing the soft skin their and upon his
sensitive scalp.
Pulling back to breath Yugi caught Yami’s eyes, unsure of
when he’d closed them and whispered to his dark, his lips brushing Yami’s with
each breath. “Fast? Yami, we’ve known each other for two years in this time,
and three thousand from last time. This is not fast.” Yugi winked up at him,
“Now, kiss me, and take me, or I’ll be forced to show you why I’m also called
the king of games.”
A flicker of interest flashed through those eyes, and for
a moment Yugi thought Yami might just take him up on his little game, but it
was quickly smothered up with the soft loving look. Games could wait for later,
this time was Yami’s. More than anything else, Yami needed to feel in control
so that his badly shaken confidence could be returned. Yugi understood that,
and was more than happy to let his dark have control of this round.
They had all night for games.
“I might have to challenge you to a match sometime then,
won’t I?” Yami asked, his voice a low tease to Yugi’s senses, and he shivered
pleasantly as warm lips once more descended upon his own in a sweet kiss that
left him aching inside for more. Not more contact, or more stimuli, just more
of Yami. Of his voice, his mind, his scent, his thoughts, his touch, his taste,
his existence. Yugi just craved more, and he knew that craving would never be
satisfied, but that was fine by him, so long as he was able to keep his
addiction close to him.
I love you… Yugi
thought to his dark, his thought purer than they’d ever been before, and his
toes curled in delight, that aching soothed slightly, at the truthful husky
response he received from Yami.
I love you, Aibou… both then, and now…
For some reason Yugi felt relieved.
^^^^^
Yugi’s lips were just as he’d remembered, and yet so much
sweeter than simple memory supplied. It was in a sense their first kiss
together, yet Yami knew that they had kissed many times before in his past. No,
this is our first kiss… I am not the same. Yami
thought, feeling the truth behind his words in the way Yugi responded to his
touches.
Yami sighed, sinking further against the form of his
light, reestablishing his claim over that blessed being, and reassuring himself
of the need that Yugi had for him. The smaller male seemed to understand his
need and let out a soft sound of desire as he pressed upwards and against him,
gentle hands looping over Yami’s shoulders to clutch at his back lovingly,
fingertips trailing burning designs over his flesh.
The softness of the touches, and the slow grace that they
moved with was like a silent plead to his senses. Protect me, was its call and
Yami sank into the role it asked for thankfully, grunting with his own need to
conquer Yugi, and be conquered in return.
Yugi…Yami called out,
his lips moving against Yugi’s urging him to deepen the touch of their mouths
into the deeper loving motion of a kiss. Yugi’s mind brushed his own as that
warm mouth complied, lips synchronizing their movement to conform with the
pressing of his own.
Yami grunted, the last of his tension easing from his
body as he rose above his light, his hands moving to caress Yugi’s body. He
kept the touches light, feeling the contours of his lover’s body through the
soft fabric of his precious nightwear. He would not trespass through that
barrier until Yugi had made it plain that he could.
He was no longer pharaoh, and would no longer expect Yugi
to do as he pleased after the first initial okay. No, this time they were
equals, he was Yami and Yugi was his light, his Aibou, his other, and he would
earn the right to be inside of his light once more.
Yugi let out a gasp as Yami trailed his hands over his
arms to curl their fingers together, intimately his thumb soothing over Yugi’s
knuckles in a gesture that showed his gratefulness that Yugi was allowing this
to happen. As those lips parted, Yami took the chance to coax Yugi’s lower lip
between his own.
A pleasant shiver took over Yugi’s form, and his
breathing sped up just slightly, as Yami slipped his lips over his own, sucking
Yugi’s lip into his hot mouth to tease it with his tongue only to let it slip
away as Yugi shifted at the sensations.
At the sudden release, Yugi whimpered, his hand pulling
free from Yami’s grip easily, as Yugi moved to keep that pleasurable contact,
and his fingers tangled into Yami’s hair. The scrap of Yugi’s fingernails on
his scalp once more sent a tingle rushing through his every nerve, and Yami
relaxed, easily allowing Yugi to roll them till he was the one upon his back,
with Yugi pinning him down, his desire pushing him to deepen the kiss.
Yami smirked, and hummed low in pride as Yugi’s talented
tongue darted out to invade his mouth. Yami slipped one leg between Yugi’s
testing his body, and the hard press of Yugi arousal made Yami tingle with
desire.
He let his hands drag down Yugi’s back, the sweat making
them cling to the fabric as he slowly moved his thigh against Yugi’s need. Yugi
hissed and bit Yami’s captured lip. The sting made Yami jerk and groan as
Yugi’s hands pulled from his hair to capture his wandering hands to urge them
under the fabric of his shirt, cooing sweetly at the brush of skin on his
quivering belly.
“…Yami…” Yugi breathed, his cheeks flushed, and words
husky with his want and emotions. It scalded Yami’s skin and he pushed to Yugi
a little harder, slipping his hands deceptively softly against his damp skin,
feeling the flutter of Yugi’s heartbeat as it pulsed thickly in his stomach.
He let his finger skim the skin slowly, loving the
tremors he brought to Yugi’s body, and the Goosebumps that rose to his flesh.
Yugi trembled, his hands slipping from Yami’s wrists as his mind burned in the
attention he was receiving. Yami found he loved the helpless look on Yugi’s
face and his inability to move.
It was an over whelming sense of power of control that
almost frightened him. He’d failed to protect his light so many times before,
and yet here Yugi was, placing his life back into Yami’s hands not in the least
bit worried that his dark might fail him again. It was humbling, and the warm
flow of love intensified, encouraging Yami to moving his kisses from Yugi mouth
to his cheeks, eyes, jaw, and up to his sensitive ear.
“mr wi ntk…” Yami breathed, the ancient language sounding
ruddy in the air between them, and Yugi expressive amethyst eyes shot open,
somehow more clear and bright than before.
Tears welled in those eyes for the words that Yugi had
somehow needed far more than he’d even realized. Yami, pulled close kissing
Yugi’s eyes gently, whispering his love again and again into the soft downy
skin, his hands paused over Yugi heart, somehow knowing that the steady beat
was all for him, and it always had.
“… gods aibou,” Yami whispered, capturing Yugi’s
sensitive lobe in his mouth and suckling the skin as Yugi lied flush against
him, his own heated lips tattooing his affections into his skin in fleeting
kisses that trailed over his collarbone and up into his throat.
Tiny hands trailed down his back from under his shirt,
and slowed to stroke the dip in his spine. The touch was so tender, so pleasing
that Yami arched up, rubbing his own erection into Yugi’s soft lower belly.
They both moaned at the intimate contact, Yugi breath
fanning over Yami’s skin in a burning caress as he whimpered alluringly, and
Yami pulled him closer, his hands tracing down his back, memorizing the smooth
skin, unconsciously grateful for the smooth, unscarred flesh under his palms.
“Yami… take off my shirt.” Yugi said breathlessly, his
own fingers tugging the buttons free from Yami’s top, and Yami shivered at the
demand, his cerise eyes locking on Yugi’s. The smaller duelist looked flustered
and desperate to feel Yami’s skin against his own, and Yami smirked, leaning up
to kiss Yugi’s slightly up-turned nose.
“Of course, aibou.” Yami said, slowly removing his hands
making sure that the slid over every inch of Yugi’s torso, dipping his
fingertip into Yugi’s navel once before he began his slow work over Yugi’s
buttons.
Yugi grunted when he ‘d finished Yami’s shirt, and
pressed in close, capturing Yami’s dusky nipple in his lips, suckling like an
infant. Yami groan, his hands clutching the fabric, no longer able to continue
his task. That seemed to annoy Yugi as he whimpered, and pressed closer, his
hands shoving the cloth off of Yami’s shoulders only to have it tangle behind
him as Yami’s hands were busy.
Yugi’s hands trapped the escaping heat of his skin, and
rolled over the skin in lustful motions, and Yami arched and tensed under the
ministrations, his skin growing damp with sweat, though he thought it might
have just been from Yugi, he wasn’t sure how real this solid body really was at
all, but he didn’t concentrate too much on it. There were much more important
matters, such as Yugi’s hot little mouth moving to his other nipple now that one
was hard and erect.
His penis gave a twitch as Yugi attached his mouth to the
other nipple, and those fingers slipped over his hips and sides, testing his
skin, before slipping up his shoulders, down his arms, and finally curling home
in his own hands.
A moment later they were coaxing Yami to continue to
remove his top, and Yami chuckled, pleased with Yugi’s single mindedness, but
his humor seemed to bug his light, as Yugi bit the nipple in his mouth to gain
his attention.
“Ow!” Yami exclamation brought a bout of guilt that was
clearly felt through their link and Yami smiled to ease the feeling. He
released the fabric of the shirt to press his palms to the planes of Yugi’s
chest and massage gently, feeling Yugi’s nipples through the cloth and urging them
to harden.
Yugi gasped, arching at the touch, and the motion sent a
plash of recognition through Yami’s mind, and he groaned, arching closer, his
hands pressing a little more urgently. Yugi looked just as he had when he’d
danced for him back in Khemet. Yami’s body trembled in remembrance and Yugi
rolled back against him with a sigh, his lips parting temptingly as he whined.
“Yami… s—stop teasing me, take… take off my… shirt…” Yugi
was breathless in the end, and Yami growled low in his chest, feeling overpoweringly
possessive of that voice and face and once more rolled them, claiming his
position on top, shrugging his top from him quickly.
“How cruel of me, forgive me my light…” Yami soothed,
kissing Yugi’s cheeks, and lips in fleeting kisses as his hands eased the
buttons from their place slowly, knowing Yugi wanted him to move faster.
Yami, please… faster…Yugi
coaxed, and Yami smirked, kissing Yugi’s forehead, one hand laying flush
against the open skin he’d revealed, feeling that heart beat pound against his
palm.
“Shh, Yugi, soon enough. I promise, I just want to see
you dance for me…”
Yugi’s eyes flew open and the color of his face darkened
even as a grin passed over his face. Yugi really did love performing for him,
and it gave Yami such delight to see his aibou so pleased.
Then remove my shirt and I’ll give you a show. Yugi tempted, and Yami purred, moving his hand to
kiss Yugi’s skin, feeling that heart jump under his attention.
The skin was warm, and tasted vaguely of sweat. The heavy
scent of musk and the rain and sea air filled his senses and drugged him
pleasantly. Yami licked the skin his hands pushing Yugi’s shirt apart so that
his hands could curl around those slim hips and hold Yugi closer still. Why
don’t you dance for me right hear aibou, beneath me… remind me why I wanted to
throw you down and take you every time you danced for me before.
Yugi giggled breathlessly, and the spike of passion from
Yugi’s side of the link let him know that his words were well aimed. Yami
smiled, moving his kisses to Yugi’s throat, as he eased Yugi up slightly to
remove his shirt and then slid close to feel the brush of skin on skin.
They both groaned, holding still momentarily, just
enjoying the closeness, and then Yugi rolled his body coyly, his body arching
and moving in controlled motions. Yami gasped silently, his eyes looking over
Yugi’s body as he pulled back watching Yugi’s dance and felt the burn engulf
his senses, and his hands slid down to hold Yugi’s hips, loving the feel of
them moving in his grasp and he groaned, eyes half-closing in passion. “Gods
Yugi, I missed you… aibou…”
Yami breathed, his lips finding Yugi’s for a drugging
kiss, as he allowed his body to move down Yugi’s winding one, laying kisses and
nips, tasting his skin, and feeling the quivering muscles that twitch beneath
the cover of his pale skin.
“… me too… me too…” Yugi’s voice was tense with tears,
but the lack of sadness or pain in the link reassured him that it was because
he was glad to be back, and he placed a loving kiss onto Yugi’s belly, right
where his heartbeat shook the skin.
Yugi grunted, breaking the sensual rhythm of his dance to
buck against Yami’s kiss and Yami felt the hardened touch of Yugi’s erection
against his collarbone. “Excited little one?” Yami asked, his hand lowering to
rub at the straining flesh and Yugi cried out, his head throwing back, his
teeth clenching.
The sight was everything Yami had dreamed of and craved
since his release from the puzzle and he couldn’t stop himself from darting up and
silencing Yugi’s cries with his mouth as he eased his tongue into Yugi’s mouth,
tasting the remaining sweet taste from the jelly roll Yugi had eaten before his
shower.
I love you… Yami
thought, his hands lowering to pull Yugi’s pants from his body, and the sliding
cloth made Yugi’s heart speed up as he clung to Yami, his own tongue joining
the kiss.
Yami… please… again…
Yugi asked, his thoughts disjointed by the soft caresses and loving pull that
eased his pants and boxers from his body.
Yami couldn’t keep the smirk from his face, as he eased the urgency of
the kiss, pulling back till Yugi met his eyes.
“I love you, Yugi Mouto.”
Yugi closed his eyes savoring the sound, as though they
hadn’t been saying the words endlessly to each other since they’d begun and
breathed out his expected reply. “… aishiteru, ore no Pharaoh.”
Yami smirked, placing a quick kiss to Yugi’s lips.
“Pharaoh? Of what Aibou? My kingdom is long gone, so what is it that I control
now?”
“My heart.” Yugi replied, giving him a cute look, “What
else?”
Yami smiled and kissed him more firmly before moving back
down Yugi’s body, pausing to suckle and kiss his skin at the spots he knew was
most sensitive before reaching his navel, loving it with his mouth slowly.
Yugi let out a squeal that scalded Yami’s insides and
almost made him lose himself right then and there. If I’m the pharaoh of
your heart… then that makes you the god that I worship. Yami thought deliriously, his hands tracing up and down Yugi’s
shivering thighs that fell easily open at his touch.
“Yami!” Yugi called, and Yami couldn’t hold back any
longer. Pulling away from Yugi’s stomach he pressed two quick kisses to the
juncture of his thighs and hip before slipping Yugi’s hard, weeping member into
his mouth.
His hands grasped Yugi’s hips to hold them still as his
hip bucked up quickly, and his feet kicked the mattress in rebellion at the
hold. “Ah! Hah, hng! Yami!” Yugi screamed, his voice squeaky with breathless
need, and his temperature spiked bringing more sweat to his skin, enhancing
Yugi’s musk, and Yami reveled in it.
The taste was different, salty, yet slightly sweet from
the snacks Yugi had a tendency to devour, and Yami devoted it to memory, and he
rolled Yugi’s manhood around in his mouth, making sure his tongue was coated
with the flavor.
Yugi had taken to making a pleasurable squeak and moaning
sound, his hands curled up to his mouth, as tears of passion eased from his
eyes. Yami hummed knowing the vibration would feel nice against his over
sensitized skin. As he thought, Yugi jerked and whined for more, and Yami felt
himself swell with masculine pride.
Sucking Yugi’s erection a little longer, Yami slid
himself free from his own pants and boxers, and shivered at the feel of cool
air that touched his hot member. With his hands no longer restraining Yugi’s
hips, Yugi was free to buck up and deeper into Yami’s mouth when he groaned,
and did just that.
Gagging in surprise, Yami pulled back raising over Yugi,
swallowing as he looked at Yugi’s needy face. His skin speckled in love marks,
and flushed a healthy color, all for him, because of him.
Sliding over him, Yami kissed Yugi’s parted lips, giving
the small one a taste of himself as he ground their hips together, now free
from the barrier of clothes.
The new sensations left them panting and moaning against
one another, and as they rocked together, Yami realized that he would need to
find something to use for lubrication if they intended to complete their
lovemaking.
Top drawer. Yugi
supplied casually, and Yami froze surprised that Yugi, his Yugi would have such
a thing.
Sliding the drawer open, sure enough, he found a rather
large tube of KY massage oil. He lifted a curious eyebrow, his insides burning
at the label that mentioned that the oil warmed on contact. Aibou…
“Don’t ask.” Yugi interrupted, his cheeks flushed darkly,
and Yami got the impression that there was a complicated story behind the tube
in his hand, and he mentally made a note to ask later.
Chuckling, Yami uncapped the oil and placed some in his
hands, slicking his fingers generously, before pausing, catching Yugi’s
eyes—internally groaning at the heat that penetrated his fingers and from the
way Yugi spread his legs expectantly—and asked again, “May I take you, aibou?”
Yugi grinned, nodding his head, biting his lip cutely his
eyes shinning with anticipation. “Yami?” He asked, as Yami bent to place his
first finger at Yugi’s entrance, and Yami stopped instantly.
“Yes, aibou?”
Yugi met his eyes, chewing on his lip in slight
nervousness, and Yami felt the need to comfort his light well up, even as Yugi
whispered, his voice tense with slight nervousness.
“Kiss me?”
Yami smiled, easily moving up and capturing Yugi lips in
a gentle, soothing kiss that eased the last traces of Yugi’s tension. Anytime,
Yugi. I belong to you… only you.
Yugi sighed, his lips curling up in a silly smile, as
Yami circled his fingertip at Yugi’s entrance. Yugi grunted, clinging closer as
Yami slowly eased the slick digit inside of his hot, tight, little body.
Yami hissed through the kiss, sharply reminding himself
that this was only Yugi’s second time, to avert his mind from how
mind-blowingly good Yugi felt inside. The kiss turned intense as he focused on
making his hands gentle, as he slowly pushed and pulled his finger deep inside,
slowly stretching Yugi with every kiss, moan, caress, and thrust.
Soon Yugi was accepting both of his fingers with ease,
the scissoring motion inside making Yugi arch and whine in pleasure. Yami kept
it up a while longer, enjoying watching Yugi’s face lost in feeling before a
brush of Yugi’s thigh against his own neglected erection, reminded him of what
he needed.
Pulling his fingers from Yugi’s body, Yami groaned as
Yugi whimpered, and clung to him as though trying to make him come back.
Kissing Yugi’s cheek he eased away.
“Hush, aibou, it’s all right, I’m right here. I just need
to—“ Yami broke off on a startled gasp as Yugi’s hand pulled around his
manhood, squeezing pleasantly.
“Let me, Yami?” Yugi asked, his eyes half-closed, looking
up at him in a seductive way that made him shiver with deep sated desire.
Yugi’s thumb rolled over the head of his erection, and Yami groan, closing his
eyes at the sensation and was lost as Yugi curled close, his hot breath fanning
over his straining need.
Yami gasped, arching, and opened his mouth to stop Yugi
and was cut off by his own shout of passion as Yugi pulled his tip into that
hot mouth.
Yami’s fingers curled into the bed sheets to keep from
moving as Yugi slowly adjusted. Suckling the tip studiously, Yugi slowly and
shallowly inched his way down, taking Yami into his mouth as far as he could,
before releasing him and tilting his head to lick up the sides coating Yami’s
length with his saliva.
Unable to take any more, Yami grabbed Yugi’s shoulders
and gently pulled him up from his throbbing and aching burning need, pressing
him back into the sheets.
Their eyes met as Yami slipped his legs between Yugi’s,
feeling the skin glide against skin making both shiver. Slowly Yami lifted Yugi’s
legs up, angling his hips so that he could enter him, and then stopped once
more.
“Yugi, are you sure?” Yami asked one last time, though
his tone implied that he really didn’t want to ask, and Yugi smirked. One small
hand lifted up to tangle in Yami’s hair bringing his face back down to his own,
kissing him lovingly.
Yami, please, I need to feel you… please.
Yami didn’t question again.
With a steady push, he entered Yugi’s body, feeling that
tight heat stretch to hold him and he trembled at the blissful feeling on his
need. The sensations that poured into him from Yugi’s side made him gasp, and
strain to move slower at the light pain he felt, and he grabbed Yugi’s hands in
a crushing hold, needing that connection more tan anything else, and felt Yugi’s
fingers curl around his own as he slid all the way home.
^^^^^
Yugi bit his lip, throwing his head back at the slight
sting and the overwhelming burn of completeness that consumed him. Oh
gods… yes, Yami… Yugi thought his every limb
quaking with shocks of pleasure as inch by inch he was filled till finally Yami
rested fully inside of him.
Yugi breathed deeply, holding Yami’s hands as he waited
for his body to adjust and felt the urge to move from Yami’s side of the link,
and the resistance that Yami placed on himself to remain still.
Touched at the concern Yugi, kissed the skin that was in
reach, lifting his numb legs from their places on the mattress where they were
dropped by Yami as he’d moved to hold his hands, and wrapped them around Yami’s
hips, rolling once to show that he was ready.
Yami grunted and his hips bucked once in return, slightly
un prepared for the feelings after having gone without physical love for three
thousand years. Yugi moaned as that motion struck his prostate and made his
body tingle from the duel assault from his back end and his erection that was
pressed between their sweaty bodies.
“… Yami… move…” Yugi gasped, and felt his dark quiver,
his lips kissing his neck gratefully as he pulled out and thrust back in, only
after the okay from Yugi.
Fuck, Aibou… you’re so tight… so hot… I love you… Yami’s thought trailed off into muddied and slurred
hieratic and Yugi shivered again at the lustful quality he brought out in his
dark, and tightened his body, moving in the slow rhythm of dance.
The feeling of Yami so deep inside of him as he rolled
and rocked made his gasp and whimper at every motion, and Yami was forced into
a harder rhythm of the base beat to his dance.
Yugi cried out at the hard and deep thrusting that made
sweat drip from Yami’s bangs to dapple his body and face, as Yami lifted up
above him, driving in almost harshly, but the tender grip of his hands, and the
way he panted and pleaded with Yugi, showering words of praise and love
softened the action and made it almost sweet.
The rocking and pushing was quickly pushing Yugi towards
his end, and Yugi clung to the sweaty hands that had yet t release his own, and
kissed Yami’s arms and chest needily, as his pants became ragged and his belly
knotted with tense release.
“Ah, Y—yami… God… Yami… please…” Yugi breathed, arching
up and loosing his rhythm as his erection was again rubbed harshly between
them, as Yami shoved back into Yugi’s body, grinding deep in side.
“Pharaoh’s… fine…” Yami quipped, jokingly, and Yugi
smiled briefly before his mind was lost in the haze of loving lust once more.
“So good Aibou…” Yami breathed, collapsing over him, and
capturing his lips in a sloppy kiss that melted Yugi’s insides as it broke and
reassembled quickly with his need to breath. “Tell me… say… you… love… me…”
Yami breathed out between kisses, one of his hands releasing Yugi’s to cup his
cheek, stroking it loving before reaching between them to place a better,
continuous friction to Yugi’s need.
The scream was almost silent but still ripped at Yugi’s
throat at the sensations that nearly forced him to completion, and was left
shaking, his legs barely able to stay up around Yami’s hips. The sweat made his
legs slip a little and he grappled to re situate his legs, and his prostate was
hit again, throwing him into a numbed state that left his legs falling to rest
on the bed, no longer able to stay up on their own.
Aibou… please… tell me. Yami urged again, and Yugi
cooed breathlessly, opening one eye to look into those cerise eyes he loved so
much, and lifted his one shaky hand to hold Yami’s face, feeling his eyes fill
with tears as he managed a smile through the heated pleasure.
I love you, Yami… gods how much I love you… Yugi thought, his face crumpling in pleasured love as
his lips were caught in a hard kiss, filled with raw emotions that crested and
flowed between their linked minds, and in the torrent of it all, Yugi felt
himself crest that edge, falling into the heat that was his Yami, as he spilled
his essence over his Yami’s hand and both their sweaty chests.
Yami grunted, his arms pulling Yugi close to his chest,
and Yugi wished he could feel a heartbeat, as he too crested the edge and a
deep warmth filled him.
Yami collapsed against him, heavy and exhausted, but
rolled slowly, slipping free, and Yugi winced a bit from the residual sting and
was promptly kissed, as Yami dragged him back into his arms, as their bodies
cooled in the night air.
Laying there, Yugi traced invisible words into Yami’s
skin, where his heart should be, enjoying the closeness as they basked in their
afterglow. The silence was comforting and Yugi stretched a little as his body
thrummed with sated comfort.
“That was nice.”
“Nice? Three thousand years of pent up frustration, and
all you can say is nice?” Yami asked, sounding hurt, and Yugi chuckled at the
bluff, kissing Yami’s mouth, loving the fact that he could.
The uncomfortable chill of the room made Yugi pull closer
to the warmth of Yami’s solid form, and he smirked as Yami deepened the kiss, his
arms pulling closer and tighter as desire arose again.
You know what I mean Yami… you felt it… Yugi eased,
only to smirk in satisfaction as he rolled them both so that he was atop of
Yami, straddled naked on his belly.
Ending the kiss he sat up with a mischievous glint in his
eyes, that Yami couldn’t miss. The spirit let his arms rest by his head, in a
submissive posture that had Yugi’s toes curling.
“Like what you see, Aibou?” He asked smugly, and Yugi
grinned.
“Yeah, but you know, three thousand years must have given
you a few fun fantasies, huh?” Yugi
hinted, enjoying the quick understanding and challenging light that filled his
Yami’s eyes.
“Go on.” Yami encouraged, his hands lifting to hold
Yugi’s hips.
“Why don’t you share some with me?” Yugi offered, and let
out a yelp of surprise as he was tossed back onto his back with his dark
looming over him with a deep smirk.
“How about I show you instead?” Yami asked already
capturing Yugi’s willing lips in another kiss sure to rekindle the heat that
Yugi needed.
^^^^^
“Yami, would you mind so much if we tried Rebecca’s
plan?” Yugi asked in the soft glow of dawn, wrapped up in the arms of his dark,
comfortably resting in Yami’s top, while the spirit wore the matching bottoms.
Yami would have to return to his spirit form soon, and he
wasn’t yet ready to release him. Yami’s reluctance only heightened Yugi’s own,
and kept him cradled in his arms, his longer fingers playing with the softer
strands of Yugi’s hair.
“… you mean ask Ptah for my own body?”
“Yeah.”
“Why do you ask, aibou?” Yami questioned, sounding tired
but satisfied, and Yugi snuggled closer, feeling as though he still needed to
be closer to Yami, even after spending the night being as close as humanly—well
more than humanly—possible.
“… I just…” Yugi began, but trailed off as his words
deserted him, and felt a gentle kiss on the crown of his head.
“You wish to be together, like this, correct?”
Yugi nodded, wrapping his arms possessively around that
trim waist and breathing in the lingering sent he had long ago categorized as
Yami. “Without you having headaches afterwards. I want to have a life with you.
A life… you can enjoy too.”
“Aibou, you spoil me.” Yami whispered, his hands trailing
down his spine in a loving manner that left Yugi feeling complete inside.
The sun was starting to peer through the curtains and
into the room, and Yugi wondered what time it was, desperately hoping he didn’t
have to open p the shop too soon.
“I am fine as I am now, and would love to have my own body
Aibou. I am content either way, with whatever you decide.” Yami whispered,
still playing with his hair.
Yugi pulled away sitting up on his arms to look Yami in
the eyes. “But, Yami, this is your life, your body we’re talking about, so it’s
your choice, not mine.” Yugi countered, ready to argue his point only to have
Yami press his forehead against Yugi’s, his nose tapping Yugi’s.
“I made the choice to see the mummies Aibou, so this
time, it is your call. I would feel much better if you made this choice.”
Yugi pouted mock glaring up into cerise eyes that simply
stared back giving away nothing. With a sigh he flopped back down onto Yami’s
chest, biting him lightly. “Damn you and your poker face…”
“Love you too Aibou.” Yami chuckled, poking Yugi’s side
in retaliation. Squirming, Yugi bit Yami again and received another poke from
his dark. Grinning Yugi sat up, grabbing his pillow and soundly hitting Yami in
the head with it.
“… Yugi…” Yami threatened playfully already, taking the
pillow from him. Yugi eeped, and tried to roll from the bed but was caught in
his attempt and pulled back into his bed where his dark continued to tickle him
breathless.
From the shadowed corner of the room, a pare of eyes
watched, with a calm sort of relief as the pharaoh and his light playfully
fought on the bed, for once completely at peace.
It’s finally over with, Atemu. I have made amends
for the wrong I dealt you long before. Perhaps now I am worthy of your
forgiveness. The Black Magician closed his eyes
and turned back into the shadows, leaving his masters to themselves, feeling
just the slightest bit lighter than before.
“Thank
you… Mahado…” Yugi seemed to fall asleep against him, and Mahado quickened his
steps entering the forbidden tomb.
“Let go, Mahado! Yug’s in there!
He’s inside there!” Atemu yelled, the cry bitter to his tongue as the grip
refused to slacken, his struggling only bringing him more pain as the taller
man lifted him from the ground. “I order you to let! ME! GO!” Atemu growled,
striking back with his head, catching Mahado in the side of the head.
Mahado
bit out a curse, dropping him, and Atemu landing on his feet kicking off in a
dead run.
As Jonoh and Mahado came to stand by his
side, most likely to urge him to return, Atemu grew deadly still, his tears
running silent, as that deep numbness set it, almost making Atemu miss the
pain, because the pain was all he had left of Yugi to cling to.
“pr-aA,” it seemed they both knew
Atemu didn’t want them being informal with him. “It’s getting dark…”
“I hate you.”
“Dark Magician. I was so scared!”
A slow smile graced the features of the shadow monster as
he sighed in relief, returning to the world he’d chose to become apart of.
“It’s over.”
The shrill beeping sound of the alarm broke up the wrestling
match between the two on the bed. Both cerise and Amethyst eyes stared at the
cloth that glared the hour of eight at them for a moment before twin grins
spread over their faces.
“Good morning Yami”
“… Guess this means I don’t have to drag you out of bed
today.”
Yugi raised an eyebrow in challenge, and Yami smirked,
grabbing the pillow.
~~~~~~~~
(Ending Theme: Night
Flower)
I'm wandering lost in the land of love;
please come find me.
I hide my heart
that I thought I'd already wore the wings off of.
The thousands of petals
which color my heart
make me yearn for you, almost sadly
Once more
Mirage that slips through my fingers
the moment I grasp it...
I want to steal away all of you.
Brandishing a frozen knife,
love dances, scattering the night flowers
Break, injure, seal it away - even my heart...
Feel it more intensely
Soot covered fragments of love.
On the streets as the night rolls in,
I'm surrounded by
the wings of a smiling angel.
I want you so much,
I can't even breathe
Let it all go up in flames; it's all the same to me.
Words are melted love.
My lips scatter the night flowers.
Love, comfort, let go - even my heart...
Feel it more intensely
If it's destiny,
then I don't need peace or warmth.
Brandishing a frozen knife,
love dances, scattering the night flowers
Break, injure, seal it away - even my heart...
Love me more intensely
A.N. And there is the
final chapter. Sorry if the sex scene wasn’t what you all wanted, Yami and Yugi
had their own way in the end. *Sigh* Anyway, there are two short extra stories
I’ll add after the epilogue so please treat them at separate pieces and review.
^-^ Thanks you for everyone of you who reviewed, it mean so much to me! ^-^ And
to all who gave me shout outs, bribe, and cookies, THANK YOU!!!! *Hugs you all*
Till next time.
Translation:
wi mr ntk: I love You.
Aishiteru…Ore no
Pharaoh: I love you, my pharaoh.
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