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Chapter List
- 1-It's My Secret to Keep
- 2-Two
- 3-Three
- 4-Four
- 5-Five
- 6-Six
- 7-Seven
- 8-Eight
- 9-Nine
- 10-Ending
- 1
- 2
- 3
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of this story.

It�s My Secret to
Keep
By
Hideki LaShae

Chapter Two � Naibun

�� Mokuba
grabs one of my hands and Kaiba takes the other.
�� I look at
Kaiba questioningly.
�� I can�t
have my puppy getting lost in his new home.� Kaiba smirks.
�� New home?�
I ask, �What drugs are you on, Kaiba?�
�� Mokuba and
Kaiba guide me out of the living room and into the dining room where the long
table is nearly completely covered in dishes of food.
�� My stomach
growls at the sight of so much food.
�� You can
sit on the floor in the corner, puppy,� says Kaiba passing me an empty plate,
�We�ll get you a dog dish for next time.�
�� Hey!� I
exclaim, �I ain�t no dog!�
�� Mokuba
pulls me to a chair with a slight glare to his older brother. �Be nice, Seto!
You can sit here, Joey!�
�� Thanks,
Mokuba!�
�� Mokuba
smiles. �Dig in!�
�� I
immediately start to pile food onto my plate as Mokuba grabs his plate and does
the same. As I sit down with a heaping plate, I notice Kaiba only has a small
salad on his plate. I wouldn�t even feed a rabbit that little. �Are you a
vegetarian, Kaiba?�
�� No, why?�
asks Kaiba lifting his silver fork.
�� Great!� I
snatch the plate from in front of Kaiba since I happen to be sitting just to
his right. I go around the table putting small portions of each kind of food
onto the plate. I notice Mokuba sniggering behind his juice glass as I replace
the full plate in front of Kaiba. �There you go! You can�t leave the table
until that plate is clean!�
�� Kaiba
glares at me.
�� Mokuba
laughs happily as I take my seat again. �See, big brother! Even Joey thinks you
should eat more!�
�� I eat
enough,� says Kaiba proceeding to eat the salad he had originally put on his
plate.
�� You are
not leaving this table until you�ve eaten everything from that plate, Kaiba!� I
smirk and start shoveling food into my mouth. What do I care about manners?
�� Kaiba
finishes his salad and pushes his plate away from him.
�� I grab
Kaiba�s wrist tightly and glare at him as I continue to eat.
�� I am not
eating that, puppy,� says Kaiba.
�� Why not?�
I slam my fork down on the table. �What do you have to do that is so much more
important than your fucking health?�
�� Keeping
food on the table for Mokuba and a roof over our heads!� snaps Kaiba, �That is
more important to me than my health, but you wouldn�t know anything about that!
You don�t have to work to support yourself!�
�� I stand up
abruptly and pull Kaiba to his feet. �You bastard!�
�� Kaiba grabs
my wrists, but he looks surprised when I use his hold on me to pull him close
to my body. I rarely let someone get as close to me as he is right now.
�� Then what
happens when you starve yourself to death? What happens to Mokuba then? Who�s
going to take care of him when you�re gone?� I exclaim. I�m getting too
emotional over this. My eyes are watering.
�� Kaiba looks
at me with wide eyes and a slack jaw. Through my blurry eyes, I can still see
that emotion, so unknown and confusing to me, within those stunning blue eyes.
He pulls me up tight against him and rests his head on my shoulder. He whispers
into my ear, �How about you? Would you take care of Mokuba in my absence?�
�� I would,
but I hope I never have to,� I whisper.
�� Kaiba
releases my wrists and slides his hands quickly around my waist to the small of
my back.
�� I move my
arms to Kaiba�s back. It feels so good to be in his arms, to be held so
passionately by someone� by him, and him alone. �Now, please,� I whisper,
�Don�t make me have to take care of Mokuba without you. Please eat some more.�
�� Fine,�
whispers Kaiba pulling back. His lips brush against my cheek as he pulls away.
He slowly releases me and sits down again. He pulls his plate towards him. �Sit
down and eat, puppy.�
�� I sit down.
�Don�t order me around and don�t call me a dog!�
�� I didn�t
call you a dog. I called you a puppy,� says Kaiba.
�� Are you
positive you�re not gay, Joey?� asks Mokuba abruptly as both Kaiba and I start
to eat again.
�� I start to
choke as my body involuntarily swallows the un-chewed vegetable I just placed
in my mouth. I start hacking and hitting my chest.
�� In a flash,
Kaiba�s pulling me to my feet and wrapping his arms around me from behind.
�� I�m vaguely
aware of the baby carrot flying from my mouth before I collapse in Kaiba�s
arms.
�� Mokuba�s
wide, frightened eyes meet my own. �Joey? Are you okay?�
�� I need to
lie down.� I pant as I lean heavily against Kaiba.
�� Kaiba lifts
me into his arms bridal style and carries me to the door. He stops and glances
back at Mokuba. �Bring a glass of water.�
�� Mokuba nods
his head.
�� I continue
to pant as I lean my head against Kaiba�s chest. I close my eyes until I feel
him lower me onto something soft. I look around to find myself lying on a couch
in the living room.
�� Mokuba
comes into the room carrying a tall glass of water. He holds it out to me.
�Here, Joey.�
�� I reach for
the glass with trembling fingers but another hand grabs the glass away.
�� Kaiba lifts
me up slightly and holds the glass to my lips.
�� I open my
mouth and let Kaiba pour the water in, which he does slowly. �Thanks, Kaiba.�
�� Kaiba
lowers me back onto the couch and places the water on the coffee table. �Are
you all right?�
�� I take a
deep breath and exhale slowly. �I think I just saw my life flash before my
eyes. I eat a lot!�
�� Kaiba
chuckles. �Yes, you do, puppy.�
�� I�m not a
puppy,� I say breathlessly, �But I think I�m okay. I feel better now.�
�� Kaiba runs
his hand through my hair, and I close my eyes as I lean into his touch.
�� I�m going
to go finish eating,� says Mokuba smiling at us before he leaves the living
room.
�� Are you
attracted to me, puppy?� whispers Kaiba.
�� Truth or
lie? Truth or lie? �No.�
�� Your body
says differently,� says Kaiba with a smirk.
�� I look at
Kaiba and pull away from him as I sit up. �I need to get home. I still have
chores to do before bedtime.�
�� Just tell
me the truth. Admit that you do find me attractive,� says Kaiba grabbing my
neck gently with both hands.
�� Shit. He
knows something I don�t want him to know. I sigh. �Kaiba, there is not a single
person in this world� gay, straight, or undecided� who would say that you are
not attractive. You are pleasing to the eye. It�s the rest of you that needs
work. Now please release me so I can go home.�
�� I�ll drive
you,� says Kaiba standing up and helping me to my feet.
�� It�s not
that far to walk,� I protest.
�� But it�s
night, and it may not be safe,� says Kaiba dragging me by my hand out to a silver
vehicle parked in his garage, �I can�t allow my puppy to be hurt or taken to
the pound because I let him off his leash at night.�
�� I�m not a
puppy!� I climb into the passenger�s seat.
�� Then you
admit to being mine,� says Kaiba caressing my cheek before closing the door
quickly.
�� I try to
climb out as Kaiba moves around to the driver�s seat, but the door won�t open.
I find that very odd since it looks like a new car and the door is unlocked.
�� Kaiba
chuckles as he sits down beside me. �Don�t bother. The doors lock
automatically.�
�� I snort and
lean back in my seat.
�� It�s not
that bad being with me, is it, puppy? Or do I have to put you on a leash to
keep you with me?�
�� You ain�t
putting no damn leash on me!� I exclaim.
�� Then stay
with me,� whispers Kaiba.
�� I need to
go home,� I say quietly. Well, sort of. I need to go to Selene�s to work, but I
feel more at home at Selene�s than I do at my dad�s place.
�� Kaiba
starts the engine and drives his car out of the garage.
�� Do you
know where I live?�
�� Of course
I do, mutt,� says Kaiba.
�� Oh, so
we�re back to insults, huh, moneybags?� I ask as I glare at Kaiba.
�� Mokuba�s
no longer around to complain,� says Kaiba. He turns onto my street and parks in
front of my place.
�� I sigh as I
look out the window. �Thanks for the ride, Kaiba!�
�� Kaiba
chuckles as I try to unlock the door to get out. He turns off the engine and
climbs out. He walks around to my door and opens it for me.
�� I climb out
of Kaiba�s car. �Thank you.�
�� Kaiba takes
my hand gently and pulls me towards the door of my dad�s shabby house. He
presses my back up against the door and locks my eyes with a fierce gaze.
�� I notice
Kaiba�s eyes glance down to my lips for a split second before he fixes his gaze
upon my eyes once more. Does he want to kiss me? �What�?�
�� Tomorrow.
Come to dinner with us tomorrow. Mokuba insists that you be there,� says Kaiba.
�� I nod
mutely.
�� Kaiba
smiles, and I feel my knees weaken. Then he turns and heads back to his car,
but he doesn�t leave until I head inside. I know because I stand there for
nearly twenty minutes and stare at Kaiba who just sits in his warm car and
stares back at me.
�� I finally
enter and close the door. I wait for a moment and hear the car drive away. I
lock the door and grab my jacket, pulling it on as I slip out the back door.
�� I run away
from my house and head into the �bad� part of town, but this place is better
than where I live. This part of Domino City reminds me of some parts of New
York City where my family got lost on vacation once before everything fell
apart. We call this place �Inner City� because that�s what it is. It�s a city
within Domino.
�� I walk past
a hooker who smiles at me, and I wave. I drop a dollar in coins into a homeless
man�s cup.
�� Thank you,
Jono,� he whispers to me.
�� Are you
okay? Got something to eat today? Do you have enough blankets, Mickey?� I ask.
�� I�m fine,
Jono. It was meatloaf night at the shelter,� says the man, �and I�ve got my
sleeping bag right here! It�s a good night! And you? Eaten anything today?�
�� I smile at
Mickey, a down and out friend but still a good one. �Yeah! I had free food
today! In a mansion! And I get to go back for dinner tomorrow!�

�� Are you humping some rich
girl, Jono?� Mickey smirks at me with all too knowing eyes.
�� I�m not
humping anybody! Besides, it�s not a girl. It�s a guy,� I say blushing
slightly.
�� Well, I�m
sure you�ll fuck him real good, Jono. Tie him to the bed so he doesn�t try to
control you, okay?� replies Mickey.
�� I feel the
blood rushing to my face as my body warms at the idea. I chuckle nervously.
�Um� I�ll think about that, okay, Mickey? But you know� I have to get to the
club now! Work, work, work!�
�� Has he
hurt you recently?� asks Mickey solemnly.
�� I sigh.
�Not like that.�
�� Mickey nods
to me.
�� I hurry
down the street and duck into an alley. I walk to the back door of a club and
rap my knuckles against the hard wood.
�� A panel in
the door slides open, and I smile at the set of eyes looking at me. �Hey,
Hourglass! Sorry I�m late!�
�� The door
opens, and a burly man stands in front of me. �Get in here, Jono!�
�� I brush my
shoulder up against his chest as I enter the club. �Have you seen my sis today?
She�s on stage right after me.�
�� Haven�t
seen her but she might have come in through the tunnel,� says Hourglass, one of
the best bouncers here at Selene�s. �Go get your ass undressed!�
�� I wink at
Hourglass flirtatiously and hurry towards a private changing room. I open my
locker after punching my access code into the keypad and I pull out my clothes.
Stripping down to my underwear, I pull on the leather pants and fasten them
quickly after adjusting my �package�. Last thing I want is that caught
in the zipper. I grab a silver net muscle shirt and pull it over my head and
down my torso to cover the bandages wound around my chest.
�� I put on my
hiking boots and mess up my blonde hair even more than normal before I slip on
my black trench coat. I set out the clothes for my sister and I adjust her
make-up case so that she can get ready in a whirlwind if she has to. It�s odd
that I think about her this way.
�� I walk out
of my dressing room and say a few brief hellos to my coworkers as I make my way
to the stage. I pause as a girl just a few years older than me walks through
the curtain.
�� The girl,
Ani, smiles at me. �I warmed them up for you, Jono! Go shake that cute ass!�
�� It�s not
cute!� I exclaim before walking through the curtain to have a spotlight
highlight me.
�� The music
starts, and I walk down the stage with a swagger accentuating my hips. I move
with a grace unknown to me, quite unnatural but maybe the most natural thing in
the world. I open my mouth and sing with a soft tenor voice as I weave my spell
of seductive dance. �Half past twelve,
and I�m watching the late show in my flat all alone. How I hate to spend the
evening on my own! Autumn winds blowing outside the window as I look around the
room, and it makes me so depressed to see the gloom. There�s not a soul out
there. No one to hear my prayer� Gimme! Gimme! Gimme a man after midnight!
Won�t somebody help me chase the shadows away! Gimme! Gimme! Gimme a man after
midnight! Take me through the darkness to the break of the day!�
�� The audience looks like they�re
really getting into this. A man at the front table starts stroking himself
through his pants as I run my hands down my chest to my own groin.
�� Movie stars find the end of the
rainbow, with a fortune to win. It�s so different from the world I�m living in.
Tired of T.V., I open the window and I gaze into the night, but there�s nothing
there to see, no one in sight! There�s not a soul out there. No one to hear my
prayer!� I sing. I desperately rip my hands away from my body and grab my hair
to tousle it up even more. �Gimme! Gimme! Gimme a man after midnight! Won't
somebody help me chase the shadows away! Gimme! Gimme! Gimme a man after midnight!
Take me through the darkness to the break of the day! Gimme! Gimme! Gimme a man
after midnight� Gimme! Gimme! Gimme a man after midnight��
�� My audience lets out a collective
moan as I thrust my hips forward, arching into some unknown force.
�� There�s not a soul out there. No
one to hear my prayer! Gimme! Gimme! Gimme a man after midnight! Won�t somebody
help me chase the shadows away? Gimme! Gimme! Gimme a man after midnight! Take
me through the darkness to the break of the day! Gimme! Gimme! Gimme a man
after midnight� Gimme! Gimme! Gimme a man after midnight�� My trench coat
flutters around me as I spin around to shake my ass for my audience�s pleasure.

�� *�� *�� *

�� My alarm
clock goes off, and I groan as I slap the button to turn it off. I climb from
bed and head into the bathroom for a quick bath. I sigh as I relax in the warm
water. My mind drifts off to my meeting with Kaiba later this evening. �Why has
he asked me to join him? He said Mokuba wanted me there. Why didn�t Mokuba ask
me himself?�
�� I shake my
head and climb from the shallow water. I wrap a towel around myself and hurry
into my bedroom to dry off and dress. As I pull my shirt over my head, I look
at the pictures on the wall, my memorial of friends. Right in the center of the
wall is my little sister, Serenity, her brown hair and brown eyes shimmering in
the light from the camera flash. Beneath her picture, I see a picture of Kaiba
and Mokuba. It was the only picture I could get of Mokuba. Liar! There�s a
picture of Mokuba alone right beneath it, but the picture of Kaiba and Mokuba.
That�s my favorite. It has Kaiba in it.
�� I sit down
on the edge of my bed and pull my shoes on.
�� What can I
say? It�s my secret to keep. No one needs to know that I�m in love with Seto
Kaiba. Honestly, the thought of me� Joey Wheeler� in love with Seto Kaiba. I�d
be laughed off the face of the planet, but truthfully though, I�ve known that
I�ve loved him for a long time� a very long time. I like the way my life is
going. I�ve got a few good friends and a beautiful, loving sister. Plus, with
me being a guy and swearing profusely that I�m not gay, no one will ever
complain about me not going after the guy of my dreams. It�s ironic if you look
at it just right. My greatest love born from my greatest hate. It�s very Romeo
and Juliet. It�s ironic.
�� There
aren�t many people who actually know how I feel about Kaiba. Most of my friends
suspect, but the only two who know are Serenity and Yugi. Both can see
it in my eyes. I grab my jacket and put it on as I head out the back of the
house, and I hurry towards the Kame Game Shop. I think Serenity might have told
Yugi how I truly feel. I know she worries about me. She doesn�t want me to be
alone, and she thinks that Kaiba would be the best choice for me. She may be
right, but the truth is� I�m in love with a gay man, and I�m not gay.
�� I sigh as I
walk through the doors of the Kame Game Shop. I smile at the elderly man at the
counter. �Hi, Grandpa!�
�� Good
afternoon, Joey,� says Grandpa Motou smiling, �Yugi isn�t here at the moment.
You�re welcome to wait.�
�� Where is
he?� I ask, �We were gonna meet here and go to a movie together.�
�� He
received a call earlier. He went over to Kaiba Corp to speak to Seto Kaiba,�
says Grandpa.
�� Kaiba?
What the hell does he want with Yugi?� I growl.
�� The bell
rings, and I spin towards the door.
�� Joey!�
exclaims Yugi smiling happily as he hurries up to me. He holds a gold engraved
card up to my face. �Look!�
�� I take the
card from Yugi and look it over. �I request your presence at a Duel Monster�s
Tournament to be held in Battle City��
�� Have you
gotten your invitation yet, Joey?� asks Yugi, �I think Kaiba�s inviting
everyone personally to a meeting with him to give them their invitations!�
�� No� I
haven�t gotten my invitation,� I say handing the card back to Yugi, �I think he
was just blowing smoke when he said he was going to invite me.�
�� Yugi smiles
and tucks the card away. �I�m not so sure about that!�
�� I scoff.
�� We talked
about you,� says Yugi leading me back into the house behind the game shop, �You
know� you really shouldn�t have told Serenity that you love him. She asked me
to help set you up with him. Is it true? Do you really love Kaiba, Joey?�
�� What do
you think, Yugi?�
�� I think
you do. I just don�t think you are ready to admit it,� says Yugi.
�� I sit down
on the couch and sprawl out on its surface. �I don�t want to��
�� What?�
Innocent amethyst eyes look at me curiously.
�� I don�t
want to love him, Yugi. I don�t want to love him, but I know I do,� I say
quietly.
�� Joey��
Yugi sits down beside me and places his arm over my shoulder.
�� Goddess,�
I hiss, �I can�t love him! Not the way I want to! Not the way I need to! I�m
not gay, Yugi! Nothing will ever change that. I�m not gay, and he is, and we
can�t be together because of that.�
�� How can
you love him and not be gay?� asks Yugi.
�� Truth or
lie? Truth or lie? �I don�t know� I just don�t know, Yugi.�
�� So� would
you be upset if I did try to set you up on a date with Kaiba?� asks Yugi
hopefully.
�� What have
you done, Yug�?� I ask skeptically.
�� Nothing�
yet,� says Yugi smiling innocently.
�� I smile.
�That big, bad CEO is too busy to date!�
�� Maybe� but
maybe he�s willing to make time for someone as special as you,� says Yugi, �Now
let�s go to the movie!� He hops off the couch and drags me to my feet.
�� I laugh as
Yugi pulls me through the game shop, and we leave to go to the theater.
�� So� Yugi�
how�s the chances with Tea?� I ask.
�� They seem
pretty slim,� says Yugi, �She doesn�t realize I like her.�
�� Should I
set you up together? I can get you both on a blind date, but your dates never
show!�
�� I�ll think
about it,� says Yugi as I pause to watch a little boy and girl playing
hopscotch on the sidewalk. He sighs gently as he stops to watch them play.
�� The little
girl has long blond hair, and the little boy has tidy brown hair, which I find
odd considering the wind is rather fierce today. Two sets of eyes turn towards
Yugi and me. �Come play! Come play!�
�� One quick
game, Siren,� I whisper quietly, �One quick game.� I step up to the chalk
drawing, and I smile at the little girl. �Do we have a rock?�
�� The little
girl lifts a rock and passes it to me.
�� I gently
skip the rock across the sidewalk so it lands in one of the boxes. �Okay, here
I go! Hope I don�t trip and land on my butt!�
�� Yugi
giggles as I start to hop on one foot through the boxes, jumping over the one
with my rock inside.
�� The little
girl claps happily as I turn around and hop back.
�� I pause and
lean down precariously to lift my rock before I continue hopping back to the
starting line. I hold the rock out to Yugi. �Your turn, Yug�!�
�� Yugi
blushes as he takes the rock from me.
�� Isn�t that
a little childish?� asks a voice from behind me.
�� Shit. I
spin around and glare at not one, but two Kaibas. �Hello, Mokuba. Kaiba!�
�� I suppose
it shouldn�t surprise me that you�re playing a child�s game, mutt. You have the
intelligence of one!� sneers Kaiba.
�� Why I
oughta��
�� Down, Jo�
no,� says the little brown haired boy tugging on my pants leg.
�� Mokuba
hides his smile behind his hand.
�� Dammit.
That sounds very much like a dog command! I take a deep breath and grind my
teeth together. �Sometimes you need to humor children, Kaiba. It makes them
happy and you can learn to be nicer for it!�
�� What are
you two doing?� asks Mokuba smiling at me.
�� I look behind
me to see Yugi still playing hopscotch with the little girl. �We�re going to a
movie.�
�� Big
brother, can we join them?� asks Mokuba.
�� Kaiba looks
at me, and for a moment it looks like he might actually be contemplating the
idea before he smirks and says, �We can�t, Mokuba. We have work to do. You have
that research paper for school, and I have some documents to review for Kaiba
Corp.�
�� Good! I
didn�t want you there anyway, Kaiba!� I snarl. I turn my eyes to Mokuba
quickly. �You I would love to join us, Mokuba!�
�� Mokuba
smiles. �Maybe next time, okay?�
�� I nod.
�Great��
�� Come on,
Joey! We�ve got to go now,� says Yugi prying the little boy off my pants, �You
go play with Charisse, Allan.�
�� The little
boy nods and moves over to the little girl.
�� We need to
be going too, Mokuba,� says Kaiba, �We�re overdue at the office!�
�� Mokuba
moans and hangs his head.
�� Seven
sharp, puppy,� whispers Kaiba into my ear as he passes me, �Seven sharp. My
mansion. Do not be late.�
�� I feel the
blood rushing to my face as Kaiba slaps my butt before storming off.
�� Mokuba
winks at Yugi as he passes.
�� Yugi grabs
my hand and we hurry down the street.
�� I thought
you met him at Kaiba Corp!�
�� No� I met
him at the mansion,� says Yugi, �Grandpa must have gotten the wrong
information. I told him I was going to meet Kaiba. I never really said where.�
�� Oh��
�� Yugi and I
walk to the theater in silence after that, but upon arriving we start
chattering excitedly about the movie we�re here to see.

�� *�� *�� *

�� I run my
hand through my hair as I stand outside of the Kaiba mansion.
�� The door
swings open, and Mokuba stares at me. �Joey? What are you doing here?�
�� Kaiba said
you wanted me to come over for dinner again,� I say. I furrow my eyebrows in
confusion. �What�s with the jacket and bag? Are you going somewhere?�
�� Yes. I�m
eating dinner at a friend�s house so we can do homework together,� says Mokuba,
�Why would Seto tell you I wanted you to come today? He knew I wasn�t going to
be�� His eyes widen slightly. �You know what� Maybe you should ask him that! Go
on inside. He should be in the living room. You know where that is, right?�
�� Yeah,� I
say stepping inside.
�� See you
later!� exclaims Mokuba walking through the door, �Maybe we can watch a movie
when I get back!�
�� We�ll
see!� I exclaim before the door closes behind Mokuba. I head to the living room
while taking off my jacket. I look in, but I don�t see the elder Kaiba anywhere
in the room. �Kaiba? Are you in here?�
�� On the
couch!�
�� I walk
around the couch and look at Kaiba lying on the plush navy surface with a
closed book resting on his stomach. I smile. I can�t help it. He�s very cute
when he�s relaxed. �Hey��
�� Kaiba turns
his eyes to me. �What are you doing here, puppy?�
�� You
invited me yesterday. You said Mokuba wanted me here tonight. That couldn�t be
true because Mokuba just left. Why did you invite me over?� I ask sitting down
on the edge of the couch beside Kaiba�s legs.
�� I wanted
to make sure my puppy was properly fed,� says Kaiba smirking at me.
�� I sigh.
�Fine! I�m going home!�
�� Kaiba grabs
my wrist as I stand up. He sits up and looks into my eyes. �Wait� stay and eat
with me.�
�� I should
say no. I should rip my arm away from him and storm out of the mansion. I
should just go, but I see that look in his eyes again. I don�t know what it is;
this emotion seems so foreign to me but I�ve seen it before somewhere. I just
don�t remember where. That look freezes me in place. When I should say no and
walk away, instead I take a step closer and say, �I�ll stay.�
�� Kaiba
stands up, heedless of the fact that his book tumbles to the floor, and he
stands just inches in front of me. He reaches up a single hand to caress my
bare neck. �No collar. No leash. Someone might try to steal you away from me,
puppy. I can�t let that happen.�
�� I shake my
head slightly. �I�m not a puppy.�
�� Kaiba holds
me close and guides me into the dining room where dinner waits on the table. He
passes me a plate. �I wasn�t able to go by the pet store to get you a dog dish
yet, so you�ll have to use that.�
�� I watch
Kaiba fill up a plate with considerably more than the small salad he had
insisted on eating yesterday. Then I fill my own plate and sit down beside him
to eat.
�� You can
come by whenever you need food,� says Kaiba abruptly, �like the lost little
puppy you are.�
�� I�m not a
puppy, Kaiba.� I smile as I start to eat.
�� You are to
me,� says Kaiba, �My lost puppy� finally finding its way home.�

�� I smile warmly. So maybe I am
just like a lost puppy finally finding my way home to the person I thought I
had lost forever. Maybe that person is lost forever, but not necessarily. Maybe
he was here all along.
�� So you can
come by whenever you�re hungry. Even if Mokuba or I aren�t home. The butler
will let you in, and the cook can usually be found in the kitchen,� says Kaiba watching
me as I smile at him.
�� Why are
you doing this to me?� I whisper as I turn my eyes down to my plate and push
the food around with my fork.
�� Why am I
doing what to you?�
�� I push
myself to my feet. �I shouldn�t be here!�
�� Don�t go!�
exclaims Kaiba getting to his feet in a rush. His eyes hold a desperation I�ve
never seen there before. �Stay and eat with me!�
�� Give me
one good reason why I should��
�� If you
don�t stay, I won�t give you the invitation to the tournament,� says Kaiba.
�� I glare at
Kaiba. �Wouldn�t that make you happy? Not having me there? I�m just a
worthless, second-rate duelist, aren�t I?�
�� You don�t
believe that, and I don�t even think� I didn�t mean it,� says Kaiba. He reaches
over and grabs my hand.
�� But what
if you�re right?� I ask ripping my hand away from him, �What if I am just
worthless and second-rate? What if I am just a stupid mutt?�
�� Kaiba pulls
a card from the pocket of his trench coat and he holds it in front of my face.
�If you were worthless� if you were just a second-rate duelist� if you were
only a stupid mutt, I would not have this for you, Wheeler.�
�� I reach out
slowly and take the card from Kaiba. I look over the gold foil writing, and I
see my name� Joey Wheeler� along with the tournament information. �I thought you
weren�t sure if you wanted to give me this or not.�
�� I always
intended to give it to you, and nothing was going to change my mind.�
�� Stubborn
much?�
�� No more so
than you.�
�� I turn away
from Kaiba and retake my seat. �Let�s eat, shall we?�
�� Kaiba sits
down beside me and we continuously glance at each other while we eat, but we
don�t say anything. Words aren�t necessary between us anymore. I can see
clearly inside him, and I know that he can do the same to me. There are things
that we keep hidden from each other. My eyes do not reveal my secrets and
neither do his.
�� Would you
like to stay with me?� asks Kaiba as I finish the last scrap of food from my
plate. �We could watch a movie.�
�� I�m afraid
I can�t� no matter how appealing the thought is right now. I am so stuffed!� I
exclaim, �But I need to get home!�
�� More
chores?� mumbles Kaiba.
�� I have
daily chores, Kaiba, and I can�t neglect them,� I say quietly, �I have things
to do�� Not to mention people to please. I have work tonight. Sundays are
normally my day off, but Selene had a few special people for me to entertain. I
couldn�t refuse.
�� I suppose
I�ll have to let you go then,� says Kaiba, �I�ll drive you home.�
�� You don�t
have to��
�� We had
this conversation already. I�m not letting you get puppy-napped!� Kaiba stands
up and helps me to my feet. He escorts me out to his car and helps me into the
passenger seat.
�� I�m not a
baby, you know� You don�t have to treat me like an invalid. I can care for
myself!� I snap as the door closes in my face.
�� Kaiba
quickly moves to the driver�s seat and climbs in beside me. �Maybe I want to do
things for you. Is that wrong?�
�� Maybe it
is��
�� Kaiba
brushes a hair away from my eyes.
�� Kaiba, you
can�t keep doing this to me!� I exclaim leaning back away from him.
�� Doing
what?� Kaiba glares at me.
�� You�re
trying to seduce me!� I snap, �But it�s not going to work! I am immune to your
charms!�
�� Immune?�
Kaiba laughs. It�s not a giggle, not a chuckle, not a guffaw, but a full-blown
life-affirming laugh. It sounds so nice! Too bad he�s laughing at me and I have
to be temperamental and scream at him for it. I�m predictable that way. I have
to act out because that�s what people expect from me, and I have to prove them
right so they don�t find out the truth.
�� What is so
funny, Kaiba?� I give my best glare.
�� You!�
Kaiba calms his laughter just a little. �You think that you are immune to my
advances, but you are far from it!�
�� What do
you mean?�
�� Kaiba
starts the engine and drives off towards my house. �Are you daft, puppy?�
�� Maybe just
a little,� I mumble under my breath, but then I snap out, �Of course I�m not!�
�� Do you
know what your friends are saying about you� about me� about us?� asks
Kaiba as he drives intentionally slow.
�� No, but
I�m sure I could imagine,� I say, �Since you seem to know everything. What are
my friends saying about me� and you� and us� although there really is no us,
and there� can�t be an us��
�� They say
that you are interested in me as more than a friend. They say they can see it
in your eyes. Bakura is especially observant. He sees every time you sneak a
look at me, and he knows how you truly feel,� says Kaiba, �He knows that you�re
falling in love with me, if you aren�t already in love that is.�
�� That�s
preposterous!�
�� Why is it
so preposterous?� snaps Kaiba slamming on the brakes at a red light.
�� Because I
can�t love! Not you! Not Mai! Not anyone! Love is not something that I can do!�
I exclaim. I can�t love anyone! I�m intended to be married! I sigh. My voice is
meek as I speak again, �Love is too good for me.�
�� Kaiba looks
at me with confusion in his deep blue eyes.
�� Dammit! I
sound so weak even to my ears!
�� It�s not�
Love is by far your equal,� says Kaiba starting to drive again after noticing
the light has been green for a while.
�� So say
you��
�� You know,
your friends also seem to think a great deal about me,� says Kaiba, �Both
Bakura and Yugi have plainly stated to me that I�m in love with you!�
�� How would
they know?� I reply looking out the window.
�� They
observe,� says Kaiba, �and I admit that some of the observations they have made
would seem to indicate that I am in fact in love with you.�
�� Why would
you love me?�
�� Kaiba
continues on as if I didn�t interrupt him. Snob. �When I spoke to Yugi today
and gave him his invitation to my tournament, he had a great deal to say about
you and me. He thought that I should ask you out on a date. I will not privy
you to the remainder of our conversation.�
�� I raise an
eyebrow at the blush forming on Kaiba�s cheeks.
�� He has
such a perverted mind!� exclaims Kaiba out of the blue.
�� I chuckle
lightly. �Yugi does have a perverted mind! I should know. I�m the one who
always watches porn with him!�
�� Kaiba�s
face flushes even redder.
�� But he�s
also very innocent too. He likes to watch, but I don�t think he�s ever went so
far as to take a hand to pleasure himself,� I say quietly.
�� Kaiba pulls
up in front of my house. �Do you love me?�
�� I can�t let
him know. �I don�t want to love you, Kaiba. You think I�m a mutt.�
�� Kaiba
climbs out of the car and hurries to help me out.
�� Do you
love me?� I ask.
�� Kaiba
freezes as we move towards my front door.
�� I stop and
look into Kaiba�s eyes. I fall victim to that phenomenon of emotion within his
eyes, and I feel the strength draining from my body. �Well� Kaiba� well? Do you
love me?�
�� Kaiba
smirks. �What does it matter if you don�t love me? Love is meant to be mutual.
Without the mutual expression of love��
�� The
feelings of one are nullified. It becomes neither love nor hate nor anything in
between,� I say.
�� You make
sense.�
�� I nod and
walk to the door. I turn around to call back to Kaiba wishing him a good night
only to find him no more than six inches in front of me.
�� Invite me
inside,� orders Kaiba.
�� Why the
hell should I?� I demand.
�� Because I
want to come in,� says Kaiba pushing forward.
�� I back up
and press myself against the wooden door. I swallow hard.
�� Now invite
me in.�
�� What if I
don�t want you in my house?�
�� That
doesn�t matter��
�� Go the
hell away, Kaiba!� I exclaim as Kaiba presses up against me to pin me to the
wall, �I�m not letting you inside!�
�� Aw� so
confident!� exclaims Kaiba, �I like that.�
�� Like? You
like but not love?� I ask, �Well, then why should I let you in? Serenity loves
me, and she�s seen inside. Yugi loves me as a brother, and he�s been inside.
But Duke and Tea, who only like me as friends, have never been inside.�
�� And what
if I loved you? Would you let me inside if I love you?� counters Kaiba as he
stares into my eyes.
�� I think for
a moment, chewing on my lower lip slightly. �I suppose if you loved me, then
you could enter� but as we have already established love cannot be one-sided.
So in order for you to love me, I would have to love you as well. And that
cannot be. I can�t love you.�
�� And what
if my feelings were so deep that were it reciprocated it would be love?� asks
Kaiba lowering his head slightly as he moves closer.
�� I think
he�s going to kiss me. I can�t let him kiss me! �No man will ever truly love
me. No man will ever even know the real me. Now get away from me, Kaiba!�
�� I see the
pain in Kaiba�s eyes as he moves away from me, but his cold, expressionless
mask covers it quickly. Still it was there. He was hurt by my words. I�m such a
moron! I love him! I do! Why can�t I tell him? Maybe he feels the same. Maybe
he could end my misery! Why must I hurt him? I don�t want to hurt you, Seto! I
swear! I don�t mean any of this! I don�t mean any of this.
�� I�ll go
then,� says Kaiba turning quickly and returning to his car.
�� I stand
there watching as Kaiba drives away at break neck speeds. I turn and enter the
house. I close the door and lean against it as tears roll down my cheeks. I
take a deep breath and run into my bedroom. I collapse on my bed in a fit of
tears. �Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit!�
�� Boy!�
comes a cry from somewhere else in the house.
�� I sit up
with wide eyes and wipe the tears from my eyes. I take a deep breath as I hear
footsteps approach. Double shit. I push myself to my feet and run to the
window, ripping it open and hurling myself out it. I don�t care if I get hurt.
I could die from the fall out the window and I wouldn�t care less, but it would
be rather difficult for me to kill myself on a four-foot drop. I roll on the
grass before pushing myself onto my feet and running away as fast as I can. I
return once more to the Inner City. I fail to notice the short black-haired boy
who rides in a small car on the outskirts of the concrete jungle, but that
doesn�t mean that the owner of the raven colored hair doesn�t notice me. I
smile at the hooker as she stands on her corner.
�� Evening,
Jono,� says the hooker with a wink, �I hope you�ll be sending some business my
way later!�
�� You might
get something!� I exclaim.
�� Send me
something good!� exclaims the hooker, �I�m feeling frisky tonight!�
�� I chuckle
and nod my head. �I�ll try!�
�� The hooker
raises an eyebrow, and I turn to glance at the dark blue car that just pulled
up to park further down the road, but not overly far from us. �Maybe I�ll get
lucky.�
�� No hooking
in front of the joint!� I scold as the sultry woman walks towards the car.
�� I shake my
head and walk towards the homeless man, Mickey. I pull some change out of my
pocket and drop it into his cup. I sit down on the sidewalk beside him.
�� Thank you,
Jono,� whispers Mickey.
�� You get
something to eat today?� I ask.
�� Mickey
nods. �Fried chicken night at the shelter. You?�
�� I ate at
the mansion again today,� I say sadly, �He invited me over whenever I wanted,
but I think I upset him. I don�t think he�ll let me go back.�
�� Well� if
you�ve upset him, then you need to apologize,� says Mickey, �and the best way
to apologize is to give him one of your dances, only a little more exotic than
you normally do, and then you can fuck him properly. I remember that make-up
sex was always the best sex I had.�
�� All the
blood rushes to my face and I smile meekly. �Okay, Mickey.�
�� You�d
better get inside, Jono,� says Mickey, �You have a job to do.�
�� I nod and
stand up again. I look at the car and see the hooker walking back over. I feel
like someone�s watching me, but I don�t see Mokuba hiding in the shadow of a
building and watching me intently. �See you tomorrow.�
�� See you
tomorrow, Jono,� says Mickey.
�� I walk down
the street, unaware of my stalker and I enter an alley. I walk to the back door
of the club and rap my knuckles against the wood. I smile as the panel in the
door slides open so that a pair of eyes gazes upon me. �Hey, Hourglass! I hope
I�m not late!�
�� The door
opens to reveal Hourglass standing in the way of me entering. He sighs.
�� I�m not
that late, Hourglass!� I exclaim, �Am I?�
�� No, Jono.
You�re actually arriving right on time for once. I wasn�t expecting you for
another few minutes. Jojo goes on in about a half hour,� says Hourglass. He
steps aside so I can enter.
�� I walk
through the door so that Hourglass can close it behind me. Neither one of us
notices the wide blue eyes staring at us from a shadow.
�� You have a
lesson right after you go on stage,� says Hourglass.
�� When am I
on stage?� I ask.
�� Mak is
going on after Jojo. Then you�re up,� says Hourglass.
�� I nod and
start to walk to my dressing room. I pause when I hear a rap on the door, but I
shake my head and continue on. It�s not my business which of my peers is coming
to work at this time, and if it isn�t a peer, then Hourglass will soon chase
away the person who would dare knock on our private entrance. I enter my
changing room and walk to my locker.
�� The keypad
isn�t really anything special. It�s just a miniature keyboard, containing the
entire alphabet as well as all the numbers. I type in my code, �Siren�,
followed by the star key, and I pull the door open. I pull out two sets of
clothing and arrange them on the bed neatly, one set of clothing for Jojo and
the other set for Jono. I smile as I look at the similar, but vastly different,
fashions.
�� With a
gentle sigh, I start to pull off my clothing and drop it on the bed to place it
within my locker later. I pause when I�m mostly naked and take a few minutes to
fix my hair.
�� It doesn�t
take me long to get ready today. It usually doesn�t. I know what to do, where
to put everything and how to apply the stage make-up I�m in tonight. I�ve
gotten good at this. When I first started here at Selene�s, and I had decided I
wanted to sing like this� well, let�s just say I looked like the slut my mother
keeps reminding me that I am. I sit down in front of the mirror and smooth down
my hair once more for effect. At the sight of my image in the reflective
surface, my mind races back to what I said to Kaiba as he dropped me off at my
house. �No man will ever truly love me. No man will ever even know the real
me.�
�� I didn�t
mean it the way it sounded, and it looked like my words actually hurt him, but
he covered up that emotion quickly. I�ll have to apologize to him later. But
for now� I�ll just sing. �Mirror, mirror, lie to me. Show me what I wanna see.
Mirror, mirror, lie to me. Why don�t I like the girl I see, the one who�s
standing right in front of me? Why don�t I think before I speak? I should have
listened to that voice inside me. I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out
of my mind to say the kind of things I said last night.�
�� Soft brown
eyes look back at me from the mirror. They�re Serenity�s eyes. That�s the only
way to explain the reflective eye shadow and eyeliner surrounding them.
�� Mirror,
mirror, hanging on the wall. You don�t have to tell me who�s the biggest fool
of all. Mirror, mirror, I wish you could lie to me and bring my baby back,
bring my baby back to me,� I sing as I stare into the mirror, �Mirror, mirror,
lie to me. Show me what I wanna see. Mirror, mirror, lie to me. Show me what I
wanna see.� I feel the pressure building in my chest and behind my eyes. Why?
Why am I getting so emotional? This is only a song! These words do not reflect
who I am inside! These words mean nothing to me! They are shallow� unlike his
eyes. �Why did I let you walk away when all I had to do was say I�m sorry? I
let my pride get in the way, and in the heat of the moment, I was to blame. I
must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind. Now in the cold of the
day I realize��
�� I tear my
eyes away from those reflecting back at me from the mirror. It hurts too much
to look at them and see the tears forming. It hurts too much to see that
emotion in those eyes� the same unknown emotion that I see in Seto�s eyes when
he looks at me sometimes� the emotion I can�t identify because I�ve never felt
it before. I let out a single sob before I compose myself again and continue to
sing, �Mirror, mirror, hanging on the wall. You don�t have to tell me who�s the
biggest fool of all! Mirror, mirror, I wish you could lie to me and bring my
baby back, bring my baby back to me!�
�� The flash
of the succulent red lips in the mirror pull my eyes back to it, and I stare
once more.
�� If only
wishes could be dreams and know my dreams could come true, there would be two
of us standing here in front of you. If you could show me that someone that I
used to be, bring back my baby, my baby to me,� I sing, �Mirror, mirror,
hanging on the wall. You don�t have to tell me who�s the biggest fool of all!
Mirror, mirror, I wish you could lie to me and bring my baby back, bring my
baby back��
�� My heart
wrenches in my chest and a few tears slide from my eyes. I was a fool when I
said those words to Seto� uh, I mean, Kaiba! Kaiba! He�s not Seto; he�s KAIBA!
Why couldn�t I have just kissed him and let the world be damned? That is what I
should have done� I should have just kissed him, and he could have broken
through my exterior. He could have found out all the secrets that I keep dear.
Yes, when someone finally does Joey Wheeler will die, but maybe death is what I
need to be able to move on. �Mirror, mirror, hanging on the wall. You don�t
have to tell me who�s the biggest fool of all! Mirror, mirror, I wish you could
lie to me and bring my baby back, bring my baby back to me!�
�� I watch the
red lips move as the mirror whispers in response, �Mirror, mirror, lie to me.
Show me what I wanna see. Mirror, mirror, lie to me� Mirror, mirror, lie to me.
Show me what I wanna see. Mirror, mirror, lie to me��

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Mirror Mirror � M2M

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