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101 Puppies	By : Hideki LaShae Category: Yu-Gi-Oh > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 6699 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Disclaimer: All Yu-Gi-Oh! characters and
references belong to their respective owners. The song The Hardest Thing
belongs to 98 Degrees and the company that recorded it and was used in this
story with the best of intentions. Story elements � Hideki LaShae. No money was
gained in the writing of this story.

101 Puppies
By Hideki LaShae

Chapter Thirty-nine
Wishful Thinking?

�� Seto wakes
up with a slight moan and heads into the bathroom for an icy shower. He shivers
as the cold water rushes over his body. �Katsuya� I love you, but how can I
tell you that when I know saying those three small words will forever more put
you in danger. I don�t even need to say them to Mokuba, but just feeling the
emotion for him puts him in danger.�
�� Seto bangs
his head against the shower wall. �How many times has that rug rat been
kidnapped and held for ransom or held while someone tried to kill me? Not to
mention the number of assassination attempts on Mokuba�s life because he�s my
brother and people think I would crack if he were ever to die. I probably
would, but no one needs to know that. Without Mokuba, I have no reason to live.
Kaiba Corp isn�t worth it.�
�� A few tears
run down Seto�s cheeks mixing with the cold shower water. �Katsuya�s worth it.
He�s worth living for, but I can�t tell him that because then someone will
kidnap him, try to ransom him off, try to kill me when I go to rescue him, try
to kill him to make me crack if he was to die. I probably would. Without
Katsuya, I�d have no reason to live. Only Mokuba and Katsuya are worth living
for. I wish� I wish I could tell Katsuya how I feel, beg him to come into my
bed and enact these latest dreams. But no� in my dreams is the only place I�ll
ever really be able to make love to my beautiful, angelic puppy.�
�� Seto tilts
his head back so the water runs over his face. �Katsuya��
�� With a
sigh, Seto turns the water off and climbs out of the shower. He wraps one towel
around his waist while he uses another towel to dry his body off. He walks out
of the bathroom with the second towel draped about his shoulders. He looks at
his bed sadly and remembers his moments with Katsuya in that very bed. He
clenches his eyes shut and turns to his dresser to get out his undergarments
and a long-sleeved mock turtleneck. He pulls on his clothes before walking over
to his closet and getting a pair of pants to put on.
�� Hey,
Seto!� exclaims Mokuba bursting through the door just as Seto gets his pants up
his long legs, �If you don�t hurry up and come down to break��
�� Seto looks
at Mokuba and wipes his face with one of his towels before tossing them both
into a hamper just inside his closet. He buttons his pants and pulls the zipper
up. �What is it, Mokuba?�
�� Why aren�t
you in your uniform?� asks Mokuba, �Are you heading to the office instead of going
to school?�
�� I have a
very important meeting this afternoon that I need to prepare for,� says Seto,
�I�m not going to school today. I�ve already told the principal.�
�� You�re
going to work yourself to death, Seto!� exclaims Mokuba, �Can�t you take a break
from work? Jou would love it if you�d��
�� I can�t! I
can�t do anything with Jou,� says Seto putting on his socks and shoes, �Now go
eat your breakfast so you can go to school.�
�� What�s
wrong with Jou?�
�� What?�
asks Seto meeting Mokuba�s gray eyes for the first time since the boy entered
his bedroom.
�� What�s
wrong with Jou? Why won�t you let him get close to you? Why won�t you let him
love you? Why won�t you love him?� asks Mokuba, �He cares about you! Can�t you
see that? He may even be in love with you, but you�re too blind and stupid to
notice! You don�t deserve someone like him! I don�t see why he likes you!� He
glares at Seto before walking to the door. �Even I find it impossible to like
you half the time!�
�� Seto�s eyes
widen. �You hate me?�
�� I love
you, Seto. I�ll always love you, but sometimes I just don�t like you,� says
Mokuba glancing back at Seto, �And I don�t like what you�re doing to Jou.
Either tell him how you feel about him and make him happy or let him go.�
�� Mokuba�
what do you think I feel for Jou?�
�� Mokuba
smiles. �You love him. You love him more than me. If only you�d act on it,
you�d make him and me the happiest guys on Earth.�
�� I can�t
let him be hurt,� says Seto turning away from Mokuba.
�� Then let
him go,� whispers Mokuba sadly before walking out of the room.
�� He�s
right. I have to let Katsuya go.� Seto sighs. �But those lips� That wonderful
mouth� That beautiful body� The feel of him in my arms� This may be the hardest
thing I ever have to do.�
�� Seto turns
on the radio beside his bed and sits down with another sigh. He shudders when
the song that comes through the speakers just so happens to express his
feelings all too well. He sings quietly as tears fall from his eyes, �We both
know that I shouldn�t be here. This is wrong, and baby it�s killing me, killing
you, both of us trying to be strong. I�ve got somewhere else to be, promises to
keep��
�� Seto wipes
his eyes and takes a deep breath. �I�ve made up my mind. There�s no turning
back��
�� I don�t
want to do this, Katsuya, but I can�t allow you to be hurt. I�ll put you into
pain now so that you won�t be in pain later. But I�ll be the one hurting the
most,� says Seto standing up. He moves to the window to see the limo leaving
the driveway, carrying Katsuya and Mokuba away. He sighs as he sadly sings,
�It�s the hardest thing I�ll ever have to do, to look you in the eye and tell
you I don�t love you. It�s the hardest thing I�ll ever have to lie, to show no
emotion when you start to cry. I can�t let you see what you mean to me when my
hands are tied and my heart�s not free. We�re not meant to be. It�s the hardest
thing I�ll ever have to do, to turn around and walk away pretending I don�t
love you.�
�� Tears fall
from Seto�s eyes again and he clutches the window seal.
�� I know
that we�ll meet again. Fate has a place and time, so you can get on with your
life,� come the multitude of male voices from the radio, �I�ve got to be cruel
to be kind. Like Dr. Zhivago, all my love I�ll be sending, and you�ll never
know �cause there can be no happy ending.�
�� Katsuya!�
cries Seto falling to his knees, �It�s the hardest thing I�ll ever have to do,
to look you in the eye and tell you I don�t love you. The easiest part will be
not to show any emotion. I�ve gotten good at that part.�
�� When you
start to cry,� come the voices from the radio.
�� But when
you start to cry�� Seto sobs quietly. �How can I hide my feelings then? I�ll
want to comfort you instead of watching you cry� but we�re not meant to be.�
�� It�s the
hardest thing I�ll ever have to do to turn around and walk away pretending I
don�t love you. Maybe another time, another day, as much as I want to I can�t
stay. I�ve made up my mind. There�s no turning back,� resounds the music from
the radio, �She�s been good to me, and she deserves better than that.�
�� Seto sings
quietly, �It�s the hardest thing I�ll ever have to do, to look you in the eye
and tell you I don�t love you. It�s the hardest thing I�ll ever have to lie, to
show no emotion when you start to cry. I can�t let you see what you mean to me
when my hands are tied and my heart�s not free. We�re not meant to be. It�s the
hardest thing I�ll ever have to do, to turn around and walk away pretending I
don�t love you.�
�� The last
notes of the song fade as the DJ�s voice comes through the speakers.
�� Seto wipes
his eyes and takes a deep breath. He stands up and walks over to the radio. �I
wish I could just tell Katsuya how much I love him and live happily ever after
with him, but I can�t� Kaiba Corp could survive the scandal from the gay
relationship. I�m not worried about that. I�m just worried about losing
Katsuya. Someone�s going to try to hurt him, and I won�t always be able to
protect him. I want to be his boyfriend, but I can�t. I just can�t put him into
that danger. I�d rather break my own heart to save his life. I�ll tell Katsuya
this evening. There�s no sense keeping him hanging on anymore than I already
have.�
�� With a
resigned sigh, Seto wipes his eyes again and turns off his radio before walking
out of his bedroom and heading down to the garage to take his car to work.
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