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Shame

a YuGiOh! fanfic by Jonouchi Katsuya and yllimilly

Yugi/Jonouchi, Anzu/Yugi

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Chapter Six

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They acted as if Yugi hadn’t just confessed feeling a little a lot more than friendship toward Jonouchi. Twelve minutes and forty seconds sitting on the bed, side by side, like magnets with their polarities all mixed.

“So with Anzu.”

“Yes.”

Their voices were flat like birds to wet to take off the ground, questions sounding like statements, glances looking like coded messages.

“What- have you like. Have you guys-”

“A little.”

This should be enough. They both knew it would be pointless to delve into the matter. But Jonouchi - he - there was Mai. There was not ever having kissed a girl before. There was Yugi always having kind of seemed his personal safety net. Until Anzu barged in, Yugi was like a constant to Jonouchi. He was that sort of eternally geeky friend with lots of free time for him. This kid who was not awkward, but oblivious around girls, and who would never end up dating someone out of Jonouchi’s league. Yugi would never change, Jonouchi had thought, he’d be his quirky adorable little self forever.

That had proved wrong.

“We...” Yugi might have interpreted Jonouchi’s reflections as wait. He didn’t sound like he really wanted to expand on the boy meets girl topic, but somehow Jonouchi just had to know. His curiosity silenced him. “We started getting more physical I guess. Kissing...”

Jonouchi’s stomach flipped. A bit. A quiet little flip that didn’t want to be the center of attention.

“And it’s different.”

“Different how.”

Yugi mirrored his uneasy gaze. Jonouchi’s heart flipped.

“How was it kissing Anzu.”

Yugi looked away, hiding his features from Jonouchi. He said nothing for a long time.

Jonouchi waited.

When Yugi spoke he made his voice very soft, so very soft it was whisper like, floating to Jonouchi’s ear like a feather in flight.

“Why?”

“Why what?”

“Why did you kiss me back then.”

“I... I don’t know, Yugi.”

“I’m attracted to you Jonouchi,” he said abruptly, his eyes pleading, disbelieving. “I’m attracted to Anzu. I can’t make both of you unhappy.”

“Yugi...”

I am attracted to you.

“You’re not making Anzu unhappy if you’re-”

“I’m cheating on her, Jonouchi. How would you feel if Mai had cheated on you?”

“I didn’t mean a thing to Mai,” he said defensively, instantly regretting the brashness of it. “I was just one of many.”

And then:

“You’re not one of many to me, Yugi.”

“I know.”

“You don’t know.”

“Jou...” He called out softly.

“I’m not - you and I are not into girls, Yugi.”

“But I-”

“I don’t think we should be afraid of that word, Yugi. We’re both gay.”

Yugi opened his mouth to speak, but Jonouchi beat him to it. Again.

“I’ve always sort of known... I wanted to see if Mai would sort of, like, make me wrong. She...”

She told me I should go out and experiment. At first Jonouchi hadn’t wanted to try and make sense of that advice. And when he had no choice but to get it, he thought he could afford to just ignore it. Yugi turned to look at Jonouchi.

“I’m not gay, Jou. I don’t like men.”

“Yugi, I don’t want to disappoint you, but if you kissed a man more than once, that makes you kind of gay.”

“What, is there like, a magic number? Was I non-straight before I kissed Anzu?

Jonouchi couldn’t help but wince. He really didn’t like the mental image of Yugi’s hands roaming on Anzu’s body, his soft lips intertwined with hers.

“You’re not straight.” Jonouchi tried to think fast. “If you’re really into her then I guess that makes you... bi.”

“I’m not bi either, Jou. I don’t like men. I like you. I like being with you, I like thinking about you, I like hearing your voice...”

“You like me.”

Yugi nodded, then buried his face in his hands.

“But you like Anzu, too.” It hurt. Saying that had hurt. It had taken him so long to realize -

Yugi nodded, then heaved a heavy sigh, his shoulders not really recovering from the slight fall.

“Look... I know.. I know this is confusing and I know that... I don’t know.” He shook his head to get rid of the confusion. “Look, what I’m 100% sure is that we’re friends. Okay? You’re my friend Yugi, nothing will ever change that. Trust me, Yugi...” And then the words caught in his throat. “If... If it weren’t for Anzu...” He sighed. “Look, what I’m trying to say is that, like, I’m glad that what happened happened. Okay? But if you’re going to torture yourself over it, then maybe we’d better stop.”

He thought Yugi mouthed the words ‘I don’t want to’, but he wasn’t sure. What he was certain about though is that Yugi was about to cry.

What Jonouchi was about to do made no sense, but in this situation it was the most sensible thing to do, really. And it was what his gut feeling told him to do.

Just like when he’d crawled over Yugi, that night, and kissed him.

He peeled one of Yugi’s hands from his face and held it in his own, not budging when Yugi turned his head away.

He didn’t need to go around and experiment, like Mai had said. There was no need for that.

“Look Yugi, I’m all figured out. But you look like you need some time to figure it out. I can wait.”

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Miho loved to say ‘no offense but’ followed by something so offensive Anzu questioned if they were really even friends.

“No offense Anzu but your boyfriend is kinda fruity. Don’t know if you noticed it.”

“No, he is just sweet and sensitive,” Anzu attempted to defend.

“And lemme guess, not like other guys?” Miho dug in.

Anzu was speechless.

“Anzu you said it yourself, Yugi just doesn’t seem that interested in ‘progressing’.” Miho winked. “There is nothing wrong with being fruity but... if he isn’t interested in you like that then...”

“He is interested in me Miho. He likes me for-”

“Your personality? Guys are never just interested in a girl for that.”

“I just feel like it is different between me and Yugi. We were friends for a long time before we started dating and... I just feel like I know him so well already.”

“Exactly. Anzu, friends don’t make good boyfriends. The people who get in relationships with their friends are only in for heartbreak because they find out that their ‘friend’,” Miho air-quoted, “only wants them for their body, which is normal, their friend was hiding so much of themselves for all that time that they were just friends., that their friend sucks in bed, that I donno, that... they are gay and just using you as a cover...” Miho looked sympathetically at Anzu.

Anzu looked down at her lunch. “Yugi has been acting strangely since I told him that I thought he was going to fast...”

“Wait, you did stuff with him and he wanted to go farther? That changes my opinion a bit. Well unless he was just doing it so you wouldn’t suspect.”

Anzu glared at Miho.

Miho laughed. “Soooooo. Tell me about it! I am so happy for you that you were getting some. What made you chicken out though?”

Anzu sighed not wanting to fully answer Miho’s questions. No way was she going to tell her every detail of that awkward first make-out session. It was just too personal and none of Miho’s business.“I just don’t feel ready,” she summed up.

Miho looked at her, confused. “It is like jumping into a pool. At first you feel the sting of the water and then you get used to the temperature-” Miho fanned her face, “ And then it feels so nice you never want to leave. No need to be scared”

Although Anzu didn’t really agree with Miho, she knew she had to say something. “Yeah I guess you are right. I am just not like you. I like to test the waters and wade it out a while.”

Miho smiled.

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In class Anzu couldn’t stop looking at Yugi. Even though she thought what Miho had said was completely untrue she couldn’t help but count the ways other girls have told her that her man was effeminate to them. She blamed it mostly on people’s thoughts about shorter men. Shorter guys can be every bit as manly as taller women can be feminine.

Yugi is a sweet caring boyfriend who is devoted to me. That is a real man, Anzu tried to tell herself. But she still couldn’t shake the thought that she might have overlooked something about Yugi. He didn’t seem like he was keeping any secrets from her... until recently.

Maybe I am just a bad kisser or, I don’t know, had bad breath...but how could that be - when Yugi wanted to go farther.

“Miss Mazaki? Are you paying attention?”

Anzu refocused on the class. Or rather, just put more effort into looking like she was paying attention.

Out of the corner of her eye Anzu saw Jonouchi and Yugi laughing. Somehow avoiding getting in trouble. Jonouchi poked Yugi. Yugi poked back.

Seemed normal for them but then Anzu started thinking or rather over thinking what she was seeing out of the corner of her eye.

Nah, if he were gay it wouldn’t be with Jou, she thought. Jonouchi isn’t that kind of guy. Besides, Miho doesn’t really know Yugi all that well.

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One two three days passed and Yugi felt like his connection to Jonouchi resembled friendship again. It wasn’t exactly like before. It wasn’t exactly like they were pretending that nothing was happening.

But still, somehow - Yugi made it a point never to mention Anzu in Jonouchi’s presence. Like they weren’t together, like she didn’t exist, like she was a reality of her own.

And he made it a point not to mention that he’d agreed to go on a date with her. A real proper kind of date, something that normal couples do, something that doesn’t involve video games or gaming or going to the arcade or dueling or talking about games in general at Burger World.

They were lying on a checkered blanket together, somewhere near the trunk of a tree. There was an uncomfortable root under Anzu’s spot; Yugi had gallantly offered to swap, and she had accepted. He felt oddly good about the chivalry, and she didn’t seem to mind, either. Maybe this was a thing. Maybe he could make it work. This would never have the spark that he’d felt when his body rubbed against Jou’s, but there definitely was this sense of being comfortable with her, more so than with other girls.

“This was a good idea.”

“You think?” Anzu sat down with the basket and started to pull out the food she had prepared.

Yugi kissed Anzu on the cheek. “Thank you Anzu.”

They began nibbling at vegetables in silence.

“Does Jou have a girlfriend?”

Yugi wanted to change the subject. But then again, that rule - the rule that forbid him to speak of one friend in the other’s presence - it didn’t apply to Anzu. To Anzu, Jonouchi was still a common friend of theirs, he was Yugi’s best friend and he was her friend a little, too.

“Why do you ask?”

He busied himself smoothing out the wrinkles of the blanket.

“It’s just... A lot of the guys are sort of dating around one way or another and Jou...” She paused, looking pensive for a moment. “Jou is like, he can’t keep anything to himself. I was thinking for a while that maybe he was seeing Mai or, well, maybe not her, but some kind of girl, right? That he had something going on and that he was not telling us. Anyway I was thinking that but Jou is such a blabbermouth - if he had anything going on, the whole school would know by now.”

He waited for something nice to come up. But truth his, he just didn’t want to talk about aby of this. “Hm.”

“Come on, you must know. You don’t talk about girls?”

There. She’d offered him an exit - probably without realizing.

“No. We never talk about girls.”

“So that means you didn’t talk about... About me, either.”

The implication was clear - you didn’t tell him in detail about our makeout session, did you Yugi?

And the reality was that, well, while there hadn’t been any details... Yugi just wanted to bang his head on something hard.

“Yugi?”

“No. It would be weird.”

And then he gave her a nervous laugh that sounded pretty sincere, given the circumstances.
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