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Love & Lost	By : BishojoShadow Category: Yu-Gi-Oh > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 2598 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Sorry for the late update also sorry about business hours
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ENJOY!!! I made it a bit longer since you guys have been
waiting so long!

For some reason Ryou didn�t feel too upset anymore about
Seto. Jou was so nice to him all the time he should have noticed it sooner.
Ryou hoped that Jou wasn�t just being nice to him for no reason�he wanted
something more to be there�he couldn�t take his heart being broken again. He
had been upset ever since Seto said he didn�t love him, true there were the few
times that he was lost in Seto�s eyes or their bodies were connected and stayed
that way for an eternity�but it proved eternity was not enough for him. There
was only one more problem�Seto had said he loved him the first night they had
made love, the only time they had �made love.� Ryou shook his head.
�Don�t think about him.� Ryou said to himself firmly
�About who?� Bakura asked noticing how much his Hikari had
been lost in thought
�Oh, no one�Jou is coming by today.� Ryou said going into
the kitchen to get something out to thaw.
�Jou? Did you and Seto have a spat or something?� Bakura asked.
He wasn�t an idiot he knew something was going on between the two he just hoped
that Ryou hadn�t lost everything to the CEO.
�I told you it�s not like that Bakura�it was nelikelike
that.� Ryou said trailing off.
�You finally gave up upon him?� Bakura asked walking up to
Ryou.
Ryou paused �I guess.� Ryou said a bit sadly.
�I know you think I don�t care that much�but I am sorry, I
at the least knew how much you cared about him...I thought he cared about you
too.� Bakura lifted Ryou�s chin �You gonna be okay?� He asked.
�Yes, you forget there was nothing between us to begin with.
I didn�t lose anything but time.� Ryou said taking out a few vegetables.
Bakura hugged him from behind. �I love you Hikari.� He said
kissing Ryou gently on the cheek startling him. �You tell anyone I said that to
you and I will not hesitate to kill you.� Bakura said walking out the door.
Ryou smiled slightly �I love you too yami.� Ryou said softly
going back to his cooking.

Jou�s POV

I have been standing outside his door for almost thirty
minutes now. I want to go in and see him but I�m afraid Seto will be there, he
is so damned possessive of Ryou! Ryou said they were not going out together, so
I don�t know why I worry. Ryou wouldn�t lie to me. I hope he knows how I
feel�if he doesn�t�he will by the end of tonight at least, I hope he returns my
feelings. I take a deep breath and knock on the door waiting for him to answer.
Ryou opened the door with one of those brilliant smiles of
his; he always had a beautiful smile and I found myself lost within it soon.
�Jou? Aren�t you coming in?� He asks bringing me out of my
trance,
�Uh�yeah sorry.� I say walking in and going into the living
room.� I felt like an idiot for staring at him as I did just standing there.
�Would you like something to eat or drink?� He asked
I was about to answer when the phone rang as he went into
the kitchen to answer it, he seemed a little upset and told me to wait a moment
as he took the cordless phone outside so I couldn�t hear the conversation.

Ryou�s POV

I sighed deeply on the other line as Seto talked to me.

�I really can�t�I have company.� I said hoping he wouldn�t blow a gasket on me
or something.
�What do you see in him?� He asked sounding sincere for once
in his life.
�I�he cares about me Seto.� Was all I could say.
�And I don�t?� Seto retorted back at me.
�I know you do, but it�s not like the way he does. You never
show it in front of others or in public it�s only when we are alone that you
seem to care. He showed how much he cared the day he walked me home and today
when I had detention.� I said
�What does that have to do with anything? What happened?� He
asked sounding concerned which made me curious on why he was acting this way�he
sounded actually concerned for my well-being.
�N-nothing important�it doesn�t matter Seto, the point is I
can�t see you tonight�I can�t�I want to stop everything that has been going on
between the two of us.� I said holding my breath as I heard the silence on the
other line.
��All right.� Seto said softly
�Please don�t hate me Seto, I just�� Seto cut me off
�It�s all right Ryou, I understand�go back to Jou he�s
probably wondering what you are up to.� Seto said in a calm tone as he hung up
one me.
For some reason I suddenly felt very bad and I didn�t know
why. Stopping what has been going on between us had to be the right decision�it
had to be. Jou stepped outside and gave me a concerned look.
�You okay Ryou?� He asked, �You look a bit pale.� He added
I forced a smile �I always look pale.� I said walking back
inside �How about that drink?� I asked as he followed me in the kitchen.

Seto�s POV

I walked into my room calmly and locked the door before I
screamed. I gripped my hair, fell to my knees, and just screamed. I had nothing
else I really could do, as I became a sobbiess ess upon my bedroom floor. Damn
him! Damn myself! Why the hell do I have to feel this way for you! Why couldn�t
I just use you like all the rest and throw you aside�LIKE ALL THE REST! Why of
all the people in the world do I have to love you? I am not meant to love! I
don�t know how to love!
What a sight I must be at the moment, clutching my knees to
my chest and sobbing into them like a three year old. I felt so insignificant
and it�s his entire fault! Yet�I can�t hate him I love him too much to hate
him. I glance around my room trying to find something other than Ryou to focus
on�but I can�t. I reach under my bed pulling out a photo album.
Ryou would surely think I was crazy for having one at all,
much less one full of him. I open it up smiling at the pictures of him. He
always had such a nice smile. Most of the pictures are of him asleep�and one of
the first night we were together. He was curled up on the living room floor. I
remember how gentle I was with him that night. At the time I didn�t know why I
had been so careful not to hurt him I was such an idiot, if I knew I was in
love with him�I would have stayed away from him, I would have saved myself the
trouble of dealing with a broken heart, and hurting him.
I don�t pity myself really, I feel sorry for Ryou and what I
had done to him�I hate myself for what I had done to him and I wish I could
take it back but I can�t now. What�s worse is he has moved on and there is
little I can do about it. I�m so much in love with him and now I fear I have
lost him.

Looking back on the memory of

The dance we shared 'beneath the stars alone

For a moment all the world was right

How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

And now I'm glad I didn't know

The way it all would end the way it all would go

Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain

But I'd of had to miss the dance

Holding you I held everything

For a moment wasn't I a king

But if I'd only known how the king would fall

Hey who's to say you know I might have chanced it all

And now I'm glad I didn't know

The way it all would end the way it all would go

Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain

But I'd of had to miss the dance

Yes my life is better left to chance

I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance

I know I have a lot of song�s in my fic�s but I like fic�s
with song�s in them ^_^ well I have to go to sleep I�m sick currently so
g�night and good read!
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