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Author:
Setosgirl
Pairings:
Mokuba x Seto
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh!. I don't own Seto. I
don't own anything, because I'm a communist ( ^^ )
Summary:
5^th in the series of Magnificent
Bastard, Pain, Tears, and Strength. Mokuba reflects upon the nature of strength.
Words:
1,102
Rating:
R

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It started because Seto was
stupid. Because he worked too hard and didn�t pay attention to himself like I
told him too. Because he got sick.

At first the doctors thought he
might be really sick � that it might have been cancer. They were wrong, of
course, just wanted to milk him for as much money as they could � but he was
really scared. And I couldn�t just let that happen. And it all happened because
he didn�t listen to me. So I took the problem out of his hands. He didn�t pay
attention to himself because he paid all of his attention to his work. So I
told him he couldn�t work anymore.

He resisted at first, but I
proved to him that he didn�t have to � I�m capable of doing it. He gave the
company to me when I told him to, and I�ve taken care of him. He doesn�t need
to do anything, now, except for what I say. He doesn�t need to worry about
anything; I take good care of him.

And he is such a weak little
bitch.

He barely resisted when I made
him stay in his room. When I changed his room. When I stopped letting the
servants or anyone else see him. When I took his TV and books� Why the hell
won�t he fight me anymore? I keep pushing, keep trying to make him tell me I�ve
gone too far � I want to see that fire. It�s just not there anymore.

He was so strong � he used to be.
Once upon a time. But he�s just not anymore. I don�t know what happened
to him � he was strong, until he gave up his control. So does that mean that
control is strength?

It is� I see that. I keep
learning. Seto, you�ve taught me so much. I don�t know how to pay him back,
except to try to teach him.

But he�s a lost cause. He can�t
learn any more � he�s broken. I don�t think he�s fixable. I took his control,
and I broke him, and the feeling of power that gives me! I don�t need
him any more, I really don�t. I was controlling him to be strong, and now I
don�t need to. I�m strong in my own right. See? Even with everything I do to
him, he gives me gifts like this.

Weak bitch.

He�s almost like a pet now. He
just sits there, does everything I tell him to. He lets me do so much to
him � and he�s grateful. I can see it in him. He�s grateful when I come to him,
when I pay attention to him. I don�t think I was ever that pitiful � was I? I
can�t have been.

I look at him now� I see his
pain, his blood. I see his tears. I see that I scare him, and that he loves me
� and I feel nothing for him. Vague disgust, maybe. How could he let this
happen for him? I beat him, make him bleed just for the hell of it. Or not just
for the hell of it � because he disgusts me. Sometimes I kind of hope I�ll
accidentally kill him� I don�t really want to kill him, but he�s boring, and
weak, and disgusting. But I feel a little responsible for him � like people do
for pets they don�t really like. He�s not even pretty anymore. There isn�t
enough clear skin on his body to be worth scarring. His blue eyes are just dull
and pathetic. He�s thin; I can feel every bone in his body, I think. Sometimes
I forget to feed him for a few days. He cries so easily � it�s because he
doesn�t have to keep his mask up around other people. And still, he�s grateful
when I come to him, show him attention.

I should just leave him there. I wonder if I tried to starve him
if he�d finally get his backbone back and try to fight back � try to get out or
something. I kind of wish he would. Maybe I should try it�

But I can�t. I can�t do something
like that to him. He might be a weak little pet� but he�s still my brother. He�s still my nii-sama. He still did
his best to protect me and give me everything I ever wanted, and I can�t just
forget that in the face of what he is now. He used to be strong, and just
because he�s lost all control now, I can�t hate him. Pity him, maybe, but I
can�t just kill him like that.

I�m just trying to protect him,
since he�s not strong enough to protect himself. He got all wrapped up in work
and made himself get sick, so now I keep him from work, so he doesn�t have
anything to concern him and make him get sick. And he just keeps getting
weaker, no matter what I try to do. So I have to keep taking more control from
him, to protect him.

I don�t need him anymore, though�
I wonder how long it�s been since I did. I�m so much stronger than him� maybe I
always have been, but I just never realized it. I can�t remember hearing him
ever deny me or not give me anything I wanted� does that mean I�ve always been
controlling him? Ever since I was a little kid? And if control is strength�

I�ve always been stronger than
him. I feel guilty, now that I know that, for letting him try to protect me.
But maybe that was part of it. I was small, so I controlled him into protecting
me. I don�t need him to do it anymore, though. I don�t need to control him to
prove that I�m strong. I don�t need to take out any anger on him, or hit him
for any reason except that he vaguely disgusts me. I don�t need him for
anything�

I wonder why that makes me so
sad. I feel nothing for him, after all. Nothing but pity and disgust. So� why
do I feel so bad? I want him, I want to need him � I just don�t. I wish he�d
just snap out of it and try to take his control back � prove that at least he wants
to be strong. But� it just seems like he doesn�t. He refuses to even try to be
strong. With a weak ass attitude like that � with a bitch attitude like that �
I have absolutely no use for him anymore.

I have total control, and I don�t
know what I�m going to do�
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